I NEED YOU NOW.









i miss them.
i miss all of my clostest/best-est friends in malaysia.
bas,beloved,eeyin,kayi,su,kirks,peixia and ju.
i really miss all of them.
i miss talking to them on the phone,
i miss fooling around with them,
i miss pouring all my sorrows and pains to them.
i miss the feeling of being loved by my friends.
i miss all the bittersweet memories,thicks and thins that we shared.


i wish there is someone here with me right now,
to share my ups and downs with.
its not like i dont talk to them anymore,
but its different.
especially when ur feeling all down and fucked up,
u wish there is someone there to talk to u and cheer u up,
like how bas used to do.and also beloved,su and kayi.

phone call is FUCKING EXPENSIVE.
and we cant call each other as often as how we used to.
i really miss those times,where we chat our heart out,
and comforting each other whenever one of us are sad or down or pissed.

i need my dear friends badly now.

i might sound like some kinda of desperado or whateva.
i dont fucking care.
i need someone to listen to me,pouring all my feelings which have been trapped in me.
im feeling really down.

it has been awhile since i actually miss home so much.
is it because its holiday now and the feeling just arise out of no where?
i dont know.
its not like i dont have any friends here right now.
i have been meeting a bunch of wonderful people here,who took great care of me when i was in trouble*its better not to mention here*,who was there by my side when i was *insert-something-not-so-good-here*.
i really appreciate that and am glad that i have met these ppl.
my life in unsw wouldnt be the same if i didnt meet u guys.

its just different,something different which i cant explain it here with words.

something struck my mind that day,
when a friend of mine said that
things is never gonna be the same between u and ur closest friends back there once u leave.

is it gonna be true????
it scares me.
i admit that i depend on my friends ALOT.

i know that i have let my friends who cared and love me down for the past few weeks,
and im really sorry about that.i really AM.
i know that they have been disappointed with certain things.
will these things gonna change the bond between us?
i hope not.
i hope that things are stil like how it was when im back for vacation next january.
lets just keep my fingers cross and pray hard.

forgive me for the emoness .
i just feel that im drowning in the sea of loneliness,and the rainy and cold weather doesnt help.
i feel so alone now.something which i havent been feeling for a LONG time.
i guess,everyone has their down moment.
emo is the best word to describe how i feel now.
and that makes me feel really PMSed and bad tempered.

That's What Friends Are For by Dionne Warwick.

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

The Best Friends, are Friends That Reach Out,and Touch Your Heart.