GREAT!!!!!

my parents hv decided to send me to University of Newcastle (UoN).
i shud be proud,happy,wateva to be offered a 50% scholarship.
yet,none of these adjectives can be used to describe my feeling.
my feeling now is a mixture of unwillingness to go,regrets for applyin the scholarship,feeling degraded(yes,thou im not that smart,but i will feel stupid when i go to sum unknown uni).
basically,that's how i feel,anythn but happy and enthusiastic.
i WUZ enthusiastic and all excited bout goin but now?
not at all anymore.i dread for da day to leave.goin sumwhr which i abso dun like.

"why on earth did i apply for da f***ing scholarship!!!!!!!"

this question has been floating in my mind ever since i received d scholarship.
now,i must pay for da price,for applying for fun.
man,im feelin depressed,rather melancholic.
i know,i must be contented and crap.
but hey imagine when u thought that ur goin to a prestigious uni,but u ended up in some not so good uni.
i dunno bout u but i definitely feel stupid,dumb,mentally challenged.

and guess wat,my dad will get me my pink sony T-10 and a pair of levis jeans for goin to UoN.
hahahahaha....laugh all u wan.
for once,adeline aint happy nor cheering for da luxurious camwhore device she had wanted for years.
i know i could live a princes lifestyle without needing to work much if i were to go UoN.
however,seriously speaking,i would rather work my ass off 20 hours a week(da maximum hours for a uni international student),not leaving my princess lifestyle,struggling hard to support my own cost of living,but study in a prestigious uni,which is UNSW which i seriously thought that i wuz gonna go there.
weird huh??adelime would rather choose workin her ass of over her T-10.

oh well,my parents are da one financing me and therfore,the ultimate decision power is in their hands.
thou,in my heart,i so dun feel like goin newcastle.
i reckon my uni life is gonna suck like hell.
ling said da choice shud be mine.but im not da one paying.

no mood for more.

~toodleS~