torn between da best and da rational one.

just when i was about to sign up and pay d deposite for unsw today,
suddenly i wuz told that i received a 50% fees waiver scholarship from university of newcastle.
its nthn wrong with gettin scholarship,i shud be happy instead of feelin d opposite,
but imagine da feelings that im goin to be downgraded from a world class university in sydney to some chapalang unknown small uni in austarlia.
seriously,i cant really feel da joy of getting scholarship,
just when i was able 2 go to unsw,now its university of newcastle.
degraded betul.i wuz hoping to transfer credit where i do my 1st two years in UON,
den i do my finals or mayb honours in melbourne uni.
i know that i could save my parents lots of $$$$,
and my wish of obtaining scholarship came tru,
but somehow,i juz dun feel d happiness in me.
sigh.......................................