its independence day tmr!!!not being a patriotic citizen,d only reason y m i lookin 4ward 2 dis day is cuz its HOLIDAY!!!!!! no col.no need 2 wake up early.but!!!! holiday = hard core study.which means i can relax a lil' bit 2day.wat 'great'determination i hv.

i used ' tmr is merdeka' s an excuse NOT 2 stay bac after col 2 do work,2 eat more,skip gym.gosh!!! sumone plz juz shoot me.when i juz said so loudly bout al d no-mores.zero determination.zero perseverance.zero self-controlled.prob dis explain my size,my not so satisfyin results.seriously speakin.i can nv get things done da way i wanted 2 b most of da time dued 2 theseeeee BAD habit of mine.

when i planned 2 finish a particular chapter,it nv reli happens cuz i wud take a million yrs b4 i can get my ass on d chair.den when i finally settle down.i ll start smsin til half an hour juz pass.fine.den i ll FINALLY start my nerdin process.b4 my chair actually get warmed,i ll start walkin around my hse,on9.den it takes me another million yrs b4 i get bac 2 my desk again.but dis time.i wud study only 4 say half an hr.wit da WAY im studyin,da way im concentratin,d number of hours im studyin.i seriously DOUBT tt i could finish EVERYTHN on time b4 trials.3more weeks 2 trials.which makes it an average of a week time 4 EACH sc sub excludin math which im pretty screwed up at DIS moment.which means i NEED 2 work extremely hard,intensive nerdin only i can finish my syllabus.however,im FAR fr intensive nerdin.i keep tellin myself focus or wtv shit.but heck,i juz couldnt conc.i hv no idea wat on earth is actually botherin me n i cant conc 4 more den an hr.dis 'syndrome' ere is seriously BAD 4 my TRIALS.its TRIALS.not common test.i muz score by hook or by crook.but i juz cant seem 2 concentrate.geniuses out thr,

PLZ SHARE UR STUDYIN TECHNIQUE WIT ME.very much appreciated.

apart fr studyin,i hv absolutely no determination in losin weigh.euniz n my mum alwiz say tt ere u say u wanna lose weight n thr ur eatin like a pig.which i think its so damn tru!but i tried seppressin my cravins.it works 4 da 1st few days.but its NOT gud til da day i cant stand it which ll lead 2 binge eatin n my bulemic syndrome ll b bac(which im tryin my very best not 2 do d self-induced-pukin) IF only i hv muc greater self-controlled.i really salute those who r anorexix.they NEED great determination NOT 2 eat 4 whole day long.anyone has da tips 4 me 2 go on EFFECTIVE dieting 4 a LONG period of time.i go gym but not s consistent s serena n yiping(how on earth can u go 2 gym so frequently?i need ur secret!!!!)n gym DOESNT seem 2 work 4 me.mayb d amount of energy i burnt is less den d amount of calories consumed.

amount of calories consumed > amount of calories burnt in gym = FAT

in short,i HV goddamn NO determination,perseverance,self controlled n wtv adjective u can associate wit these.its damn fcuked up when u cum 2 think of it.

d past few days hv been quite shyty 4 me.college is seriously BORING,TEDIOUS!!!!!!i juz cant pay attn in class nowadays.bio-ecosystem which i dun understand y on earth muz v learn al these shits!!!physics-nv like dis sub.chem-sillicates r utter nonsense.math-dun c da point of learnin matrix.sound so bimbotic n u ppl muz b thinkin my s well i dun go col.EXACTLY.prob im stil in my hols mood.dammit!!!!i need 2 stop these shits aasap if i stil wan 2 achieve my target of scorin a TER of 95 and above.but wit da way im behavin now.it seems quite impossible.

i cant bliv tt taylors r so patriotic.they hv dis dress colour thingy which follows da colour of malaysia flag everyday n hv a costume theme 4 diff races everyday.bein an avid fashion icon in col,johan sng made d effort 2 reli dress up.n his dressin were reli extra-ordinary i would say,thorn among roses.he reli stands out.n he is enjoyin d attn.so bein a camwhore,how could i miss a chance 2 pose wit his 'extraordinary' dressings.ere r da pics :


johan n i.he wuz wearin dis white outfit whr chinese ppl wore in d olden days.sum said he looked like a priest.d red scarf is obviously his.i wuz a gud gal on monday,followin d colour of da day-blue.



johan n i again on tuesdayin a strickin red outfit whioch reli stands out too.wit a white scarf.(reli wonder how big his wardrobe !!!) me.bein d not-so-law-abidin student,i decided 2 go against d colour of da day - red n wore black!!

i din get a chance 2 pose wit johan today.n he wore da jack-sparrow hat which i LURVEEEEE sooooo muc!!!!

2day wuz pretty miserable 4 me.things had turned all against wat i wanted it 2 be.1st i wanted 2 stay bac after col wit wenfei 2 do my math work.but my im feelin so lazy,lethargic,tired,sleepy 2 stay back.instead i went home wit serena n her'gud fren'.went mcds in centrepoint.prob due 2 da low glucose level.i ate a sundae cone n d oh-so-sinful choc indulgence.yea.i noe.i prob had consumed more den 1000 cals.i WUZ SUPPOSED 2 go gym.but while i wuz fixin my ipod nano in2 d armband,su called n v chatted 4 almost 45 mins.(gals can talk reli long without realisin)by the time i let down da phone,damn its 630.n i dun go 2 da gym tt late.dun ask me y.i wan d answer 2.wanted 2 do d exercise on 17 mag.but im juz too lazy too.need i explain more?

excess carbssssss + no exercise = @#$%*#%#*

n tmr baskin robins hv 31% discount tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit.

damn.

darn.

fcuk.

my stupid cravings is haunting me.

i noe i can b a biatch sumtimes.alwiz contradict wit my own statement.wanna lose weight but stil craves 4 da sinful food.chocs.icecream.heck i managed 2 resist chocs ok?n i NORMALLY eat alot when im stressed which means durin exam period.n i noe dis suck.ppl cant eat when they r stress.whereas im TOTALLY OPPOSITE cuz i eat MORE when im stressed!dammit.*curse my super duper uber low metebolic rate****

i think i hv been complainin way 2 much in dis post.but tt's wat bloggin 4 rite?2 release all my anger!!!

some random pics taken.

diana-ur horror highness wit me durin lan.


my new elle flats wit matchin nailpolish.


my fav flats.itssss soooooo nice...simple but elegant.lurve it!!!




u muz b wonderin wat happened 2 taylors.they had dis flag-raisinn thingy n singin session
in conjuction wit independence day.nv knew they were tt patriotic.


serena n i posin outside class.ppl make da rules.v break them.d dress clour is yellow.so wat?

tt's all for now.gotta start nerdin.my stomach is bloatin n im feelin obese!!!

~ciaoZ~

hols is over......

i stil MISS campX!!!im hvin camp sick!!!i miss my dear frens fr da camp.at least i DO NOT need 2 worry bout my studies,my trials n my undone,procrastinated hw!!!!!!all i need 2 do in camp is enjoy 2 da max!!!!!!



me,ling,yin,kayi and bas da coconut tree.(thou lookin horrible,but stil lurve dis pic!!)



wtv it is.i NEED 2 go on wit my tedious,full-nerdin life 4 da next 3 friggin months!!!!!!! dammit.i CANT wait til nov 15 to come.cuz tt's da day i can STOP studyin 4 da next 3 months til my uni commence.but b4 tt,i NEED 2 b a ful-time nerd,nthn but a ful time nerd!!!how pathetic can it b?

sad 2 say tt my hols is goin 2 b over in another 16 hrs!!!dammit.no hols til my finals is over.unless u consider study leave s hols.which i def WUN!!i pretty much wasted lotsa time durin my 1 week break.i wuz supposed to nerd HARD,supposed 2 exercise hard,supposed 2 eat less,supposed 2 finish ALL mu overdued hw.yea al d SUPPOSED.but goddammit!!!i did absolutely nthn.besides nerdin environmental chem wit my mind 100 miles away fr my brain.cant blame me.i juz DUN hv da mood 2 nerd durin hols.yea.instead of losin weight,i prob gain a few pounds!curse.curse.curse.i luv food.hate exercise.wat is d outcome?d answer its pretty obvious.

so fr tmr onwards,im GONNA switch 2 ful nerdin mode(hopefully i wun get distracted by god noes wat).my freakin trials is on da 22th of sept.damn near edi.n i noe nuts bout my stuffs.n fr tmr onwards,i SHALL exercise more since i juz bought new dumbells.i SHUD also eat less fr tmr onwards.yea.a brand new start fr tmr onwards.

NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!!!!!

NO MORE WASTIN OF TIME!!!!!

NO MORE JUNKS:CHOCS & SWEETS!!!!!!

NO MORE NONSENSE IN MY MIND WHILE STUDYIN!!!

NO MORE LAGGIN IN GOIN 2 GYM!!!!!!

hopefully,adeline ll hv better determinaton dis time.

tt's all for now.need 2 complete my stupid ids.den prepare 4 useless text production.

~ciaoZ~

dis post is a very much delayed post bout my d2yC X(dhammadutta developement youth campX) held in SJBA. hv been really lazy 2 post.n i only received da 'decent' pics yest.so i decided to blog bout it today!!! went for d camp since fri nite til mon afternoon.i did enjoy d camp very very much!!!mainly cuz i wuz able 2 meet up wit my old pals n spend a few days wit them.i din reli how muc i missed them til d camp ended.they were my beloved,kayi,bas.too bad kirks wuznt thr 2 join us.or else it wud definitely b more fun.
i wuz quite suprised 2 c flame head(jun hao),extreme(robin) and tt 'arsenal' guy nigel on fri nite when i reached thr wit ling n her sis.i mean they juz 'disappeared after 2004's d2yc and now they appeared again.da 3 of them r serious jokers man.esp jun hao.almost yea almost EVERY sentence he said can make u laugh.imagine spendin a month wit him talkin 2 him 6 hrs a day,u can def built albs wit da laughter due 2 his joke.his skills in crackin jokes were amazing i wud say.mayb cuz most of them doesnt make sense.i think da 4 of us(me,ling,yin n kayi) had done LOTSA laughin 4 d past 3 days.b it b4 meals while waitin outside d dinin hall or while v were hvin our activities.v laughed non-stop.v wud definitely laugh more if kirks was thr. (bas,u shud learn more fr him.ur no longer da joker champion.=P) mayb da camp wuz extremely fun wuz cuz of their hillarious jokes!!!mayb thr r ppl thinkin tt y on earth r these bunch of ppl r laughin like mad ppl.who cares?I LIKE!! I ENJOYED!
i played lotsa games s usual.i mean its a youth camp rite?their games were meaningful cuz behind every each games thr is a moral value behind it.i mean it sounds quite cliche but yea every game did hv a moral value behind it.such as faith,thrust,racism n more.after been 2 col 4 almost a year,i find tt its hard 2 find tru frens who u can actually gif them ur 100% thrust and hv faith in them.therefore appreciate ur tru frens!!! (cliche again.)
1 of the most interestin game is survivor X.it requires team work n so.s usual.but d game wuz kinda interestin thou.besides da extremely difficult stunnes of tryin 2 grab hold of the cup w'out touchin ur leg and body on da ground.n also da one walkin on da bricks which require super duper alot of energy.good 4 burnin fats!!!! another 'memorable' game wuz tressure hunt.why?cuz i wuz woke up by camera flash at 430 in da mornin wit only 3 and a half hours of sleep!!!!!yea imagine tt brain block wit my braincells barely awake,DUH my group din win.its dark n everyone wuz stil half asleep.u expect us 2 think?haha.its impossible 4 me thou.since my brain cells can only function efficiently IF and only IF i hv sufficient sleep.call me pig or wat.tt's how my brain works.
dis camp did do me gud!they hv dis session bout parents which i think its v useful.dis session wuz FRIGGIN EMO.seriously damn emo.dun wan 2 elaborate on it but it wuz a reli emo session.but it makes me 2 think alot bout my parents n i.i noe they luv me alot n i do LOVE them too.v drew further apart as times pass due 2 da miscommunication.wel,im tryin v hard 2 speak nicely 2 them.hopefully things work out!!!!
after dis emo session bout parents.it wuz time 2 h fun.since it wuz da last nite .v fooled around.too bad ling n yin went back early.v had lotsa lotsa fun!!!esp wit those hillarious guys...kayi n i were laughin non-stop.n of course cam-whored ABIT.d ultimate camwhore -me wuz on hols cuz i took extremely few pics!!!n most of da pics were horrigible lookin dued 2 deprivation of beauty sleep.lookin like a zombie.
ere r da pics i took.careful chosen.to prevent me fr lookin like a dead duck!

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ling,kayi,yin and me(in front)aug and bas (behind) couldnt rmb da guys name on d right(sorry)

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~ciaoZ~

my very much delayed camp post

dis post is a very much delayed post bout my d2yC X(dhammadutta developement youth campX) held in SJBA. hv been really lazy 2 post.n i only received da 'decent' pics yest.so i decided to blog bout it today!!! went for d camp since fri nite til mon afternoon.i did enjoy d camp very very much!!!mainly cuz i wuz able 2 meet up wit my old pals n spend a few days wit them.i din reli how muc i missed them til d camp ended.they were my beloved,kayi,bas.too bad kirks wuznt thr 2 join us.or else it wud definitely b more fun.

i wuz quite suprised 2 c flame head(jun hao),extreme(robin) and tt 'arsenal' guy nigel on fri nite when i reached thr wit ling n her sis.i mean they juz 'disappeared after 2004's d2yc and now they appeared again.da 3 of them r serious jokers man.esp jun hao.almost yea almost EVERY sentence he said can make u laugh.imagine spendin a month wit him talkin 2 him 6 hrs a day,u can def built albs wit da laughter due 2 his joke.his skills in crackin jokes were amazing i wud say.mayb cuz most of them doesnt make sense.i think da 4 of us(me,ling,yin n kayi) had done LOTSA laughin 4 d past 3 days.b it b4 meals while waitin outside d dinin hall or while v were hvin our activities.v laughed non-stop.v wud definitely laugh more if kirks was thr. (bas,u shud learn more fr him.ur no longer da joker champion.=P) mayb da camp wuz extremely fun wuz cuz of their hillarious jokes!!!mayb thr r ppl thinkin tt y on earth r these bunch of ppl r laughin like mad ppl.who cares?I LIKE!! I ENJOYED!

i played lotsa games s usual.i mean its a youth camp rite?their games were meaningful cuz behind every each games thr is a moral value behind it.i mean it sounds quite cliche but yea every game did hv a moral value behind it.such as faith,thrust,racism n more.after been 2 col 4 almost a year,i find tt its hard 2 find tru frens who u can actually gif them ur 100% thrust and hv faith in them.therefore appreciate ur tru frens!!! (cliche again.)

1 of the most interestin game is survivor X.it requires team work n so.s usual.but d game wuz kinda interestin thou.besides da extremely difficult stunnes of tryin 2 grab hold of the cup w'out touchin ur leg and body on da ground.n also da one walkin on da bricks which require super duper alot of energy.good 4 burnin fats!!!! another 'memorable' game wuz tressure hunt.why?cuz i wuz woke up by camera flash at 430 in da mornin wit only 3 and a half hours of sleep!!!!!yea imagine tt brain block wit my braincells barely awake,DUH my group din win.its dark n everyone wuz stil half asleep.u expect us 2 think?haha.its impossible 4 me thou.since my brain cells can only function efficiently IF and only IF i hv sufficient sleep.call me pig or wat.tt's how my brain works.

dis camp did do me gud!they hv dis session bout parents which i think its v useful.dis session wuz FRIGGIN EMO.seriously damn emo.dun wan 2 elaborate on it but it wuz a reli emo session.but it makes me 2 think alot bout my parents n i.i noe they luv me alot n i do LOVE them too.v drew further apart as times pass due 2 da miscommunication.wel,im tryin v hard 2 speak nicely 2 them.hopefully things work out!!!!

after dis emo session bout parents.it wuz time 2 h fun.since it wuz da last nite .v fooled around.too bad ling n yin went back early.v had lotsa lotsa fun!!!esp wit those hillarious guys...kayi n i were laughin non-stop.n of course cam-whored ABIT.d ultimate camwhore -me wuz on hols cuz i took extremely few pics!!!n most of da pics were horrigible lookin dued 2 deprivation of beauty sleep.lookin like a zombie.

ere r da pics i took.careful chosen.to prevent me fr lookin like a dead duck!






chiat,me,bas,yin,ling and kayi on fri nite(stil lookin fresh and radiant)

ling,kayi,yin and me(in front)aug and bas (behind) couldnt rmb da guys name on d right(sorry)

d gays(jun hao n robin)


nigel and i


bas and i


kayi and moi


aug and i (he's juz SOOOO cute!!)


robin and i


carl,bas,robin,i and aug.


darling kayi n i.before da emo session.





haw lun n i.


d 4 of us.(kayi,me,ling n yin)

i think tt's all for dis post.headin 2 da gym now.

~ciaoZ~

HOLIDAYS!!!

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

yaadadadada!!!!!finally i hv a week break but heck it doesnt reli seem like a hol cuz i AM supposed 2 nerd at least 6 hours a day.which take up a quarter of my day.another 1/3 is 4 sleepin

PATHETIC hols!!!!!

tt's wat i call.sigh.anyway tt's d ONLY way if i wanna score well in my finals.n im gonna make sri kartina tjandra my role model now since she scored freakin well in her as.nearly PERFECT man her scores.i SO gonna make her my role model.

col's gettin more and more borin day after day.brain is gettin more n more dead day after day.ESP AFTER CHEM N PHY CLASSES!!!!!chem wit da stupid sillicates n shits.i wonder how many of my brain cells got killed everytime after my chem's class.phy isnt tt bad its juz tt i hv ABSOLUTELY ZERO in tt sub n i alwiz managed 2 score d highest 4 tt sub.how ironic ya? considerin da fact im anti phy n chem now,n i DOWAN 2 b a lifeless nerd studyin 24/7,i think choosin commerce is stil a better choice.

~pharmacist : once i wuz reli into dis job but wit chem screwin me upside down..no way im gonna torture myself in uni.
~doctor : din i juz mention i dowan 2 dedicate MOST of my uni time studyin?n i ll prob b studyin til im 30.
~dentistry : not muc interest n unless my dad is a millionaire if not its gonna b damn damn ex 2 study.
~engineerin : i hav mentioned how muc i dislike physics rite?????

so currently,acc is d BEST choice.yea CURRENTLY since i alwiz change my mind.

im goin 2 d2y campX tonite!!!!cant wait!!!!gonna update d pics when im bac!!!

~ciaoZ~

weekendssssssssss......

well.i HAVE 2 enjoy my weekend till da fullest cuz i PROMISED myself n my dad tt im goin 2 study RELI HARD if i wanna go overseas n HOPEFULLY i CAN achive a TER of 95% or above.

so basically i went ou twice in 2 days.but sad 2 say tt i did NO shoppin.i saw dis FREAKIN nice PINK bag in extreme n its only 40 bucks.din get it thou.IF my dad gives me sum 'reward' 4 my ok results.i ll DEFINITELY buy it!!!so i went out wit my best-est frens of 5 years : ling,kart,su 2 ou. a meetin since v havent been hangin out together 4 YEARS.i realised how muc i actually missed em.i met up wit ling1st.v had mocha mud pie in TGIV.taste of heaven!!! forgotten 2 snap a pic cuz its juz soooooo mouth-waterin.met up wit kart n su after tt.v joked around like idiots in da middle of nowhere.crackin lame jokes,laughin hysterically.seriously i think half of my mud pie actually digested tru da laughter.they hv been reli GREAT frens 2 me.goin tru thick n thin wit me.b thr when i need em.listen 2 my countless complaints patiently.i cant imagine how my life;s gonna b w'out em. <3>interestin.so FINALLY ling gave in n v watch dragon tiger gate!!!finally!!!!!after 3 weeks!!!d mov's graphics,sound system were fab!!!!but sad 2 say nictse din reli appear muc in tt mov.most of it wuz donnie yen.wateva it is.NICHOLAS TSE IS STIL SO EFFIN HOT!!!SO DOES SHAUN YUE!!!
i cant wait 4 miami vice n my super ex gf 2 b out in mal.i hv turned 2 a mov freak l8ly whic i dunnno y.over-stressed?prob.

being d ultimate poser,do u think i wun cam whore?impossible.unless da sky turned red.or unless im in a reli reli bad mode.ere r da pics v took.


beloved ling n i in tgif.



ling,me,kart.



ling n me AGAIN.sephia effect.


su n i.being a camera-shy.dis is da BEST pic i could take of her.


ling,me n kart.luv u ppl.


went 2 da park 4 a stroll after i came back.saw my cuteeeeee lil meighbour thr.DUH im gonna pose wit my model!!

my lil' bf num2 - shane.AINT HE CUTE?????






guess who i saw yesterday when i wuz in one u?

WILBER PAN WEI BO. (i think tt's how u spell it)

he's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

drop-dead gorgeous HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo GUD LOOKIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean thou im not a fan of him but heck he's juz so damn effingggggggggg hot.

HOT aint he?

thr r a few random pics ere taken on friday:


taijia n i...wonder which hot chiq caught his attn...


yo-handsome n i wit his 70s shades.


mua.


ultimate POSERRRRR.......

~ciaoZ~

i juz came back fr taylors placement day.n sheesh!!!australian unis r money-suckers man.their fees r like so SUPER EX!!!!


uni of melb (d most pretigious 1) -$ 24000 per annum (whic makes it almost RM 75k)
unsw - $ 21000++
uni of sydney - $ 20000 ++
ANU - $ 21000 ++
uni of adelaide - $ 16300 (cheapest within my choice of unis)
monash aus - $ 20000 ++

n those figures above r only TUITION FEES!!!mind u.only friggin tuition fees alone can also kill edi.imagine addin al d text books,michalleneous fees,cost of livin n so.u need at least 8O k at least(dis is for adelaide uni).

Y ON EARTH MUZ THEY SET SUCH HIGH SKUL FEES???

Y ON EARTH IS MALAYSIA CURRENCY SO FRIGGIN LOW?????

Y M I NOT SMART ENUF 2 GET A SCHOLARSHIP????

i reli reli wanna study abroad next year.apart fr da freedom,i think d environment thr is DEFINITELY better den malaysia rite?i mean its like so obvious.or else parents wudnt spent so muc money juz 2 send their children abroad.

anyway.no point talkin shits now.1 more month 2 trials. 2 more 2 finals.al i need 2 do now is b a COMPLETE NERD.nerd hard.focus hard.concentrate.no distraction.no more fishin.no more bloggin so ofter.no more smsin so often(rite.s if i can).

juz now while i wuz talkin 2 dis representative of uni of sydney.thr;s dis mc next 2 me.n her results were like WHOA!!! al A18 or A19 except 4 esl.how on eath can i lose 2 an MC?????

*disgrace*

she mite b one of da mutated ones tts y she's scorin so damn well.reli damn me-malu-kan man.my results r NTHN compared 2 her!!!damn.damn.damn.i lost so badly 2 a friggin mc.dis is da GREATEST motivation 2 make me nerd kao kao.kiasu-ness shown.

guess tt's it 4 d time-being.

i wanna finish my one tree hill season 3 b4 my nerdin-mode is switched on next week...hehe...

i HAVENT watched my DRAGON TIGER GATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ciaoZ~

emo-ingggggg

IM FRIGGIN EMO NOW!!!!!!!!!

I SO NEED A TIME MANAGEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i guess i figure out y i din perform well in my common test.cuz i did not focus while studin.no ful concentration.mayb i studied alot,consistently.but da effect or 'yield' is not s expected cuz i din absorb fully.mayb
only 50% of wat i studied went in2 my brain.so its POINTLESS 4 me 2 study so muc but produces nthn.

FOCUS!!FOCUS!!!FOCUS!!!

tt's wat i need.

apart fr tt,im definitely a procrastinator .im not discipline enuf.delay delay delay.tt's wat i alwiz do.fr hw 2 studyin.

*l8r lah*
*after tt 1st*
*wait 4 a while lah*

cant i b more determined?geesh!!i kno tt i could hv performed MUC BETTER in my common test3 n previous tests.however,due 2 my LACK of focusin,concentration,cautiousness,i screwed my paper over n over again.previously,i only complain on how i screwed my paper but nv exactly think wat my mistakes are,instead of changin,i cursed,blamin questions n .......

luckily my lec woke me up.she told me tt i could hv done better if only im more attentive in class,study more focusly(is thr such word).last min revision is v gud 2.(cuz i hv a habbit whic is im unable 2 study rite b4 exams)
so i guess i need 2 n MORE ATTENTIVE,MORE FOCUS,DO LAST MIN REFRESHIN in my upcomin trials.

after my math lec told us bout da moderation system by ssabsa.i realised how muz more hard work i need 2 put in if i wanna get a TER of at least 95%!! esp chem since i HV NOT get an a since i started SAM.therefore i need a v high final result 2 pul up my internal assessment.

speakin bout chem,

I MISSED ONE FRIGGIN MARK 2 GET A!!!!!!!


ARGGGGHHHHHH!!!!IM SO BLARDY CLOSE 2 GET AN A FOR CHEM FOR D FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE SAM PROGAMNE!!!


I MISSED DA DAMN CHANCE AGAIN.

partly due to my carelessness,partly due 2 not enuf hard work.serve me rite 4 not workin hard enuf!!

tt's all 4 now...time 2 complete ALL my overdued tedioussss matrix hw...

~ciaoZ~

yay!!!

MY STRENOUS COMMON TEST IS FINALLYYYYYYY OVER!!!!!!

can hv sum space 2 breath.after nerdin 4 god noes how long.til i hv PIMPLE!!!


can u spot d pimple on my nose!!!

but my results arent tt satisfyin after all.s i mentioned in d previous post,i screwed my bio.thank gudness i managed 2 get an a 4 it.but i knew i cud hv done MUC BETTER.even my lecture said so.

*adeline,u din show ur full potential.i noe u hv d brain.but ur not focus enuf.u did put on more effort b4 test*

which is so goddamn tru!!d MAJOR MAJOR prob wit me is i CANT FOCUS!!i NEED TO,OUGHT TO,start focusin,give in 101% of concentration.i hv approximately a month more b4 my trials.hell yea.1 friggin more month.fr now.which means b4 i can actually start relaxin i need 2 study my ass off if i wan 2 obtain satisfactory results.i felt s if i let my lecturer down,my parents s wel s myself 4 not focusin n puttin muc effort,foolin around col.need 2 get myself focus asap after dis weekend break.

hv been piggin lots lately.due 2 stress n my nv-endin cravin.which leads 2 guilt n taadaaa....figure it out urself.




look at dis.its DURIANS FR MUAR.they r like DA BEST-est durians u can find n my cousin brought us bac 8 durians.yes.EIGHT durians.n i hv not been eatin durians 4 a longggg time+da durians r DAMN DELICIOUS.imagine how many cal EXTRA i actually consume everyday??????how can i hv MORE determination 2 STOP eatin.can those who had gone tru dietin teach me their secrets?i reli need serious dietin BUT i need sumone 2 teach me da way 2 resist FOOD TEMPTATION!!i reli need it!!!

bac 2 today.went pyramid after class.class finished at1.=P but they hv some career test thingy.went 2 d com lab.but it tok d lec damn long 2 tell us wat 2 do.so serena n i decided 2 juz skip dis useless thing n ciao early.went 2 watch d breakup.d mov wuz FUNNY!!!hillarious!!

n im SO DAMN JEALOUS OF JENNIFER ANISTON HOT BOD!!!SO DAMN TONNEDDDDD!!!

DROP-DEAD GORGEOUS!!

n her dresses r juz HAWTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!

i noe.it doesnt sound TT rite.but heck.her bod is reli damn damn damn CHUN!!!*jealous* im stil STRAIGHT!!!

went 2 buy my mum's cake after tt.but they DUN HV choc indulgence!!!i wan tt cake.so finally get choc chip walnut instead,i ll make sure i get tt 4 my bday!!but.wait.im SUPPOSED 2 restrict myself fr these sinful fooddddd....damn.

anywayz...its my mum's bday today.

HAPPY BDAY MUM!!!!!

had pizza 4 dinner.its freakin fillin.tried d new wedges pizza.pretty gud.


fruits s d appetizer....*healthy*


choc chip walnut.not bad.but i wan CHOC INDULGENCE!!!


FOOD....


new wedges pizza fr dominos...

look at d cal i consumed again.wat make things worst is i SKIPPED gym today.cuz i wuz too exhausted.i shud start eatin LESSER tmr IF N ONLY IF i can resist d temptation.

ere r sum random pics taken out of boredom...


my sis n i.


my adorable lil' 'boyfren' n i...lolz..aint he cute??????


soooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!



my hair need rebondin again...curly strands startin 2 grow edi thou d bottom is stil straight..any gud sallon to recommend?n not too ex.around 300-350 bucks. recommendation plz.

tt's al for dis post.once again

HAPPY BDAY MUMMY!!!!!!

~ciaoZ~