i am probably facing one of the biggest challenge in my life now.
and always being the well protected one under my parents' wings,to overcome and to face this challenge is definitely MUCH HARDER than expected.
this goes without saying.
apart from coping with the exam stress which is increasing with exams approaching closer,
i have stuffs to deal with when i get home,when i was supposed to study.
"just don't think about it at the moment,concentrate on your finals"
easier said than done.
sometimes,things are not as simple as u think.
DUH i would wish to push everything behind my head and concentrate on my finals,but u cant just delete everything off ur memory as u wish.
if only things were that simple and not complicated,life would be much easier.
unfortunately,this is life.


after this incident happened,the unconditional support my parents gave me made me realised that i took them for granted when i was back home.
i complaint,complaint and complaint ALOT whenever they interfere with my stuffs,whenever they decide things for me,whenever they nag/lecture me out of good will.
before i came to aussie,there was part of me which was looking forward to study down under where i can break free from my parents' "control".
now,when i am under such stress and problems,i wish my parents were here with me.
i admit that i am slack in that sense,but i do miss my family terribly.


i admit,i wasnt a very homey and family kinda person.
my relationship with my parents wasnt the best father-daughter-mother-daughter-relationship.
i respect them,i love them,but for some reason there is an invisible barrier between us.
my secrets seldom flow to their ears,i would usually go to my friends whenever i have problems.
its not that i don't trust my parents,its just generation gap and communication problem.
maybe its cuz my parents are the typical conservative asian parents,i am sorta intimidated *ok,this is kinda exaggerating* by them at times.
my dad has always been telling me that
"family will always be there for u no matter what and friends come and go"
i truly feel it now.
of course,i am not that dumb not to know that,neither do my besties abandoned me or something.
i can feel EXTRA love and care from my parents thou we are so far apart.
it really warms my heart.
it makes me appreciate them MORE,and thinking that how immature and spoil i was last time.


seriously,i dont know what shit am i writing at the moment.
what i am trying to say is
"i am really lucky and glad to be blessed with such great,supportive parents who support whatever i do,who have been sacrificing ALOT for me to study here."
especially my dad,who wasnt from an affluent family.
he managed to send me to aussie with his own sweat and hardwork.

i will try to put all these shits behind me at the moment,
pass my 1st semester with flying colours (HD average),
this is the best and least i could do for all the sacrifice my parents had for me.


i have no idea since when my blog became so serious.
heck,i just need to pour my feelings and release my stress.
feel much better now,hopefully i am able to concentrate for at least an hour.
i really need to,time is running out.

i

am

stressed

exhausted.tired.worn out.

i am literally half dead after work.
and i only worked for 6 hours which is the minimum.
really an old fart i am.
heaps tired now.
gonna sleep soon and wake up early to study like how i did for the past few days.
which *ahem* not THAT productive.
but at least its better than to study when i am full tired.


there is really something wrong with my health i reckon.
for the past one week,there wasnt EVEN ONCE where i slept through the night.
i woke up AT LEAST ONCE throughout my sleep.
which is NOOOO good.
partly its due to the SUPER DUPER UBER COLD WEATHER!!!!
god knows why.
there must be heaps of unhealthy substances in my body.D'OH.


anyways,


I GOT MY FRIGGIN' PAYCHECK TODAY!!!!!

yeap.
it TOTALLY made my day.oh maybe evening.
LAME i know,but heck,i LIKE.
lets put it this way,i am not sure whether the amount i received today is meant to be 2 weeks salary,which is last week or this week OR only last week.
IF its for last week ONLY,it IS FCKEN GOOD!!!
IF its for BOTH last week and this week,i am CUT!!!
get the picture?but i think the latter makes more sense but.=(
the feeling is indeed good.
SATISFACTION it is.
i decided to reward myself with 2 scoops of ice cream before heading home.

green tea and bonbonrocher ( choc with ferrero rocher)
its.so.damn.good.
it tasted 10000x better when u bought it after u got ur pay.


while waiting for bus.
can u see the satisfaction in me?wtf?


DARN TIRED on the bus.

kinda EMO-looking pic.
but dw.i am not.


well,work is not as bad as i thought now.
the serving customers part isnt that bad.
the one that really put me off is THE PRE-CLOSING CLEANING.
zomg,and im responsible for washing,something that i detest ALOT.
the people there are really nice.
oh,i get FREE coffee too.had a regular mocha during work.
also,i get 50% off all the pastries.
and,10% off birthday cakes.
working = exercise.
*standing for 6 hours and washing IS a form of exercise.*
also,working = no time for munching snacks.
*reduces my food intake*
working = cash inflows aka income. *too much accounting*
i guess i will just stick to it at the moment,till i find some better job which is related to accounting and finance.*oh,HOW EXCITING.*
at least,i have an income to finance my holidays plan,my social life,and my shopping.wtf?

btw,
wouldnt be blogging that often anymore.or at least i hope.
switching to FULL NERDING MODE to prepare for battle in my finals.
HDs FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS!!!!
*motivation*
im reallllly tiredddddddddddddd now.
off to bed.


~ciaoZ~

my concentration is wandering around mars and refused to return to earth.

to concentrate 100% while im studying now seems like a mission impossible to me.
it takes me FOREVER before i can gather my concentration together and actually absorbing something to my brain.
i became restless after sitting down for 5 mins.no joke.
even in the library.
but i reckon library is the best place for me to study at the moment as i am forced to sit still and continue studying no matter how restless i am.

went state library with linda today.
i wouldnt say it was a productive day.
i was supposed to finish revising ALL my micro today,ended up finishing 2 chapters only.
*there are alot of stuffs for me to fully understand it,ok?that takes longer when u have some crappy lecturer.*
man,if that's the case,i need to burn midnight oil before my paper.
something i am not good at.
believe it or not,i am UNproductive (studying wise) at the very last minute.
cramming is just not my thing.
in fact,i can barely study the night before or hours before the exams.
call me weird or what,i just dont do last minute cramming.

this is what u do when u are bored and restless and u have nothing else better to do.
my colourful notes.=))


i look freaking tired and dead here.
cbb to put any make up on.
*NO,i DIDNT put any blusher on*


this proved that i was really really bored and restless.


slept before 9 yesterday.break my own record and su's record.
woke up at 615 this morning to study,but.
did finance tute work.
boy,finance does take up ALOT of my studying time.
2 days to read ONE chapter and complete the tute work.

i am planning to do that tonight too.
sleep early (after watching heroes while folding my clothes and blog) and wake up earlier tmrw to study before heading to work.
ZOMG,work tmrw. =(((((((
freakingggg DREADDDD it!!!!!
yes,adeline the princess didnt quit her job.
im gonna show YOU PPL that i can stand some hardship. -.-
all the cleaning,washing.YUCK!!!!!!
oh well,i think i shud stop complaining about how shit my job is and how much i hate it.
cuz i think all my frens/readers are pretty sick of my endLESS complains.
a fren of mine said if i continue to have the thought that i hate and dread it,i am gonna suffer while i am working.why not just enjoy it and its gonna be a happier day.
maybe i shud.
think of the shopping i can do after receiving my paycheck.
think of the social events i can attend using THOSE money i EARNED MYSELF.
satisfaction it is.
i am gonna spend the paychecks from the next couple of weeks on my winter getaway at this beach near sydney.
we are renting a house for 4 days 3 nights,near the beach.
AWESOME.
cant wait for it!!!i seriously need this sweet escape.

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these 2 random pics i took with my cousin's kids last week:



jade and i.


jeremy and i.
* i know my face look flat and round.*

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my cravings for junks was unbelievably HUGE and FREQUENT lately.
i wonder is it due to the weather or is it just ME.
of course i know that i AM NOT SUPPOSED TO eat so much junks everyday,
but never underestimate the power of cravings,especially when u are studying.
u might say its all up to u,whether u have enuf determination to resist.
easier said than done.
im trying hard to control,but the more i control the more i eat.wtf rite?
this binge eating is seriously doing me no good.
from past experience,its gonna lead to my you-know-what-habit again.
to make thing worst,i barely exercise.ok or maybe,never.
i can feel my lung/heart getting weaker and not as strong as it used to be.wtf?
as i was asthmatic when i was younger,my lungs werent that strong.
and now,i think its not in the best condition as i tend to pant like a freaking 90 year old old fart after a short walk or after climbing the never-ending UNSW stairs to the upper campus.
holy shiate.
my mission is to sign up for a gym during my winter break and work my ass off.
this IS a MUST!!!!
screw u-can-still-exercise-without-a-gym-such-as-jogging.
who on the mother's earth will jog in such cold weather,around 15 degrees?
at least those with sane mind wouldnt.
linda and i had make this as our #1 mission during winter break.
GET FIT!!!!

"I hope to spend alot of time in a bikini over summer so I need to look good!"
- luisa_vasta

"The longer I leave it the more there will be to work off..."
- jonathan_stilts

found this 2 motivations on9.
hopefully it helps.flat chance but.

another mission:
stop my coffee addiction AFTER my finals.
can die dot com without coffee to stimulate my brain in the morning.
therefore,i cant quit coffee at the moment,i NEED it DESPERATELY in order to study.
its so weird that i am so addicted to coffee now,when i DONT drink coffee back home.
i was even anti-coffee back then.
stress changes your hormones....



anyways,

heroes and folding clothes time. (",)



narcissistic to the core.

till then,
toodleS

I SHUD HAVE CHOSEN DENTISTRY OVER COMMERCE.


i had lotsa stuffs to blog about,or at least i thought i have to blog about at first.
but once i click on the create post page,all my thoughts seem to vanish into thin air,
only able to type after staring blankly at the page for some time.wtf?


i went to the dentist today to fill my decay/rotten/broken tooth.
GUESS HOW MUCH DOES IT COST FOR A 15 MINS FILLING SESSION???

A WHOPPING 180 DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

zomg,wtf rite?

37 dollars for consultation fees.
and i don't remember consulting him regarding my tooth.
i went in and told him straight that i wanna fill my tooth.

3 x 180 = insert-figure-yourself.


i shud have taken dentistry instead of commerce.
earn 180 dollars in 15 minutes.
minus all the opportunity costs,at least 80 dollars net profit can be earned in 15 mins. *too much microeconomics.LOL*
seriously,if it wasnt cuz of the staggering fees of RM 600,000 ( 200,000 dollars),i would have taken dentistry,and i am sure to be loaded in future.
yes,i admit that i AM money-minded/materialistic.sue me for that.=.=
seriously.



i have an incredulously enormous/gigantic/hugeass-pregnant-woman appetite now.
i have the urge to munch on something like every 2 seconds.
especially biscuits and chocs.
this is bad.really bad.
super unhealthy now.

eat full of junks.

barely exercise.

lack of sleep.

constant stress.

overdose of coffee.


boy,that's how unhealthy i am at the moment.
OMG.with exams drawing closer,stress level increasing,coffee is essential during study period.
........................................................
i know,i know,coffee IS really bad for my health.
it dehydrates ur skin and so forth.
however,i am almost like a dead duck without coffee.
evidence : im half dead like a zombie in uni today cuz i chose hot choc over coffee.

ok.i shud stop typing any further,since i dunno what the hell am i typing too.
im tooooo exhausted and my brain cells are trying really hard to digest those finance information which i just read.
FINANCE = TEDIOUS!!!
as if my other subjects are interesting.


i have developed a lovehate relationship for autumn.
the autumn scenery is picturesque and breathe-taking*ok this is abit exaggerating*
but the view of fallen leaves is really nice.

a sunny but breezy mornin.


its sunset-ing @ 4.30.

also,leggings is my love now.
skirt + leggings + boots + scarf = me lovey!!!!!


it does look kinda retarded without my boots.
but yea,u get the picture?wtf?


my eye lids are getting heavier and on the verge of shutting.
till then,
~toodleS~

FREEZINGGGGGG COLD!!!!

instead of taking a short nap,i am indulging myself with the 2nd cup of hot choc of the day.
was napping till someone called,and i couldnt get back into sleep again thou i am exhausted.
3 layers of clothes+a long john+a winter jacket+3 layers of blankets/comforter arent enough to keep me warm.
and this is supposed to be the hottest may in da past 15 years.
genius me who saw the sun smiling warmly at me,and assumed that today is gonna be one hot sunny day,took my leggings off which i hv already worn.
oh,did i mention that i wore SKIRT?
it was pretty SMART of me to let the fact that its end autumn now to slip off my mind.
which results me in freezing whenever i am outdoor.
the sun was still beautiful,but not the wind which blows mercilessly * ok this might be abit exaggerating,but u DONT get SUCH wind back in malaysia .*
my coat*my mum bought in china 2 yrs ago which i thought it can keep me warm and cosy since china is much colder* and scarf failed to keep me warm,which left me shivering most of the time.
maximum temperature today? 17 degrees!!!!!!*holy mother of ganja!!!*


COLD!!!!COLD!!!!!COLD!!!!!!!
hmmm.winter is not that fun anymore.
especially when the weather freeze the shit outta u.
and,yes eeyin,i DO need more long sleeves.in case u din realise,since when do i wear long sleeves when i was in malaysia.nearly nil rite?LOL.
which means,i cant quit my job atm.
i NEED the cash DESPERATELY to invest on some WARM,COSY winter clothings AND stockings.
i CANT WAIT for my paycheque!!!!!!!

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i have something to bitch about after so long.riteeee.
its about this "fren" of mine,
which i assume she thinks that she is one holy angel or whatever but in reality she is the totally opposite of it!!!!
that doesnt give her the right to go around to insult people as she likes.
no one fcken died and make u king,biatch.
like seriously,IF u ARE holy or whatever,go ahead and insult.
but hell no,u hide ur horniness and go around insulting people.
dont think so superior of urself when u are abso-freaking-lutely NOT.
grow up kid and get a freaking life!!!if u have one but.
seriously.
a "fren" who ONLY calls u during break cuz she has no other frens to hang out with. a "fren" who goes STFU when u talk in lecture when she was trying to learn but she herself goes around disturbing and distractin u when she feels like it. a "fren" who LOVES insulting u and thinks she is hella great when she is not.*mind u,not constructive critism*
a "fren" whom i wish i never met.
fingers crossed.hopefully we DO NOT have any lectures or tutorials together.
thank god that i am still blessed with TRUE frens who are always there for u when u need them.
i need u,NOT.


ANYWAYS,


finals is in 3 weeks.3 friggin' weeks.
im dead.oh,i am so dead.
i need to study harder on weekdays and saturdays since i have work on sunday.
i will give myself another try this sunday,HOPEFULLY i am able to get some other BETTER job soon.* i think all my frens are sick of my complains every single day.sry peeps.=)*


my intelligence level has declined further as exams are approaching.
dun ask me why,but i am currently at the why-the-hell-did-i-turn-so-dumb-suddenly-and-i-dunno-how-to-do-this stage.
bad.bad.bad.bad.bad.
i need MORE motivation and determination as usual on my studies.
as well as my diet as well.
last week was bloating week,a signal before auntie rose pays me a visit.
and,my cravings is still not getting any better.
sigh,sigh,sigh.


till then,
~toodleS~

I.HATE.MY.JOB.

my title might make me sound like the biggest bimbo on this planet.
but,seriously,MY.JOB.SUCKS.
fortunately/unfortunately,i got an asian manager.
asians = overwork,underpay.
HEAPS of work to be done,PAY is fken low.
it IS below minimum wage.*click*
wanna know how much is mine?fcken 10.50 dollars an hour.
freaking 6 hours and 40 minutes of work non-stop.
with a miserable 10 minutes break.
the cleanin before closing was HORRIBLE!!!
im contemplating whether shud i continue,but my frens were asking me not to be so spoil,and i need an experience to get a better job.
frankly speaking,i DONT MIND the filthy cleaning up and the hardwork IF i get paid properly.
bahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
it was freaking tiring.
was dead exhausted after work yesterday,and my left hand muscle is stil aching.
god knows why.

i am so gonna go for job hunting again tmrw at macquarie centre.
before that,i am gonna look for my manager and ask her whether can i spread my shifts between thurs to sunday,with shorter hours.
im tryin 2 stay put with this job atm.
i NEED income!!!!
weather is getting freakin cold now,and i need thicker clothings.
seriously,i have less than10 long sleeves shirts.
PATHETIC can describe best.

on the other hand,
i got another market research job!!!!!
80 friggin' dollars for 2 hours of market research!!!!!
how good is that?
too bad,its not a continuous job,or else i dunmind working everyday.D'OH!!!

i have more things to blog about,but my eyes are shutting.
till then,
~toodleS~

I.HATE.MY.JOB.

my title might make me sound like the biggest bimbo on this planet.
but,seriously,MY.JOB.SUCKS.
fortunately/unfortunately,i got an asian manager.
asians = overwork,underpay.
HEAPS of work to be done,PAY is fken low.
it IS below minimum wage.*click*
wanna know how much is mine?fcken 10.50 dollars an hour.
freaking 6 hours and 40 minutes of work non-stop.
with a miserable 10 minutes break.
the cleanin before closing was HORRIBLE!!!
im contemplating whether shud i continue,but my frens were asking me not to be so spoil,and i need an experience to get a better job.
frankly speaking,i DONT MIND the filthy cleaning up and the hardwork IF i get paid properly.
bahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
it was freaking tiring.
was dead exhausted after work yesterday,and my left hand muscle is stil aching.
god knows why.

i am so gonna go for job hunting again tmrw at macquarie centre.
before that,i am gonna look for my manager and ask her whether can i spread my shifts between thurs to sunday,with shorter hours.
im tryin 2 stay put with this job atm.
i NEED income!!!!
weather is getting freakin cold now,and i need thicker clothings.
seriously,i have less than10 long sleeves shirts.
PATHETIC can describe best.

on the other hand,
i got another market research job!!!!!
80 friggin' dollars for 2 hours of market research!!!!!
how good is that?
too bad,its not a continuous job,or else i dunmind working everyday.D'OH!!!

i have more things to blog about,but my eyes are shutting.
till then,
~toodleS~

EMO-ING


currently,i am experiencing one of those PMS moment where u just feel freaking cranky and cbf to do any shit besides complaining,bitching and everything just doesnt seem to be in the right place for u.


my freaking tummy hurts like shit.
i did something just now which i wasnt supposed to do.
something which i promised ALOT of ppl which i will not do it again,
but i succumbed to temporary pleasure.
as if those times,after i have stuck my finger down my throat,and the tummy ache i have weren't enuf for me.
and now,my tummy feels like shit as if there are billions of worms ripping off my intestine.
this sucks.
who to blame?
no one,except for myself.
but,if its so easy to overcome it,there is no need for psychiatrist to even exist in this world.


and,
the " filling" in my decayed tooth,somehow came out,
which left me with my decayed tooth exposing to all the junks that went into my mouth.
now,my freaking tooth is hurting LIKE MAD!!!!!!!
when i rinsed my mouth after brushing my teeth,holy cow!!!!!
IT.FREAKING.HURTS.LIKE.SHIT!!!!!!
god,i need to see a freaking dentist ASAP.
prepare to burn a huge ass hole in my pocket.


also,
im SUPER UNFIT now.
ok,maybe that is understatement.
i freaking NEED to go back to how i used 2 exercise regularly.
frankly speaking,i feel like an old fart.
i tried skipping 200 times today,and jog on da spot for 10 mins,
and now my muscle are aching.
WTF is wrong with me man,seriously?
this TOTALLY freaked me out.
but,how on earth am i supposed to jog in a cold weather?
by hook or by crook,i need 2 get myself back into exercise again.


due to the dry and getting-super-cold-at-night weather,
my moisture-less skin,on my face to be specific is drying up.
and it actually hurts.
apple might not be as red as my face at the moment.
freaking hell,when i applied cream on it,it actually HURTS.


yeap.
basically,my whole body is aching and suffering in pain.
wtf?i sound like a freaking 70 year old bed-ridden grandma.
i think even my parents are fitter den me now.
probably,all these uncomfyness lead to my cranky mood.


as if things arent bad enuf,
to " spice" things up,
i freaking need to work from 11-5 tmrw.
why the heck did i accept that damn job again in the first place?
that place is FOREVER BUSY,with FUGLY uniform,and i am still in the dark regarding my wages.
yes,tell me why did i accept that damn job.
i seriously feel like dogging that job tmrw!!!
i know i shudnt be bitching about it when i havent even started,but i SERIOUSLY dread it.


im feeling so fcked up right now.
yes,those moments where u feel utterly miserable.
MU BETTER WIN IN THE FA CUP TO EASE MY MISERABLE-NESS.wtf?



emo-ing alone,in a cold autumn night is just
PATHETIC


*i will upload some pics soon when im feeling better*

~ciaoZ~

accounting sucks big time.

i seriously seriously seriously HATE accounting man.
currently,taking a break from my acct perdisco practice set.
that piece of shit makes u pay 20 dollars,bore the shit outta u and it doesnt guarantee ur 10% assessment.
i spent 2 hours on it and im only 15% done.ZOMG!!!!!!
its so freakkkingggggggg tediousss!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its basically just recording shits into special,general journals,subsidiary,general journals.
and there are 12 parts to be completed.
WONDERFUL!!!!!!
i cant imagine myself dealing with all these shit for the rest of my life.
BAHHHHHHH!!!!!!

at the beginning of the session,most of the ppl i asked told me that they are gonna major in accounting and finance.
the reply i get 3 months later is
" not sure what major will i be doing,but definitely not accounting"
accounting is created to torture us,seriously.
finance is another boring subject too.
who said finance is interesting?????
-_________________-


despite my great achievement 2 weeks ago for refraining myself from chocs for 2 weeks,
i am back to the usual choc addict again.
definitely not good.

winter = fat season
choc addict = (fat) to the power of 2
winter + choc addict = (fat) to the power of 3


maybe its due to PMS,i have been craving for junks these days.
the urge to munch something just comes every 1 minute.
another BIG OHNOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the urge to munch leads to unstoppable eating,which results in obesity!!!

like today,i have been craving for MAXBRENNAR since i woke up.
i decided not to buy lunch in uni and have MAXBRENNAR instead for lunch.
went MAXBRENNAR with sally after class to satisfy my pregnant-woman-cravings.



belgium choc waffle is da BOMB!!!!!


milk choc chunk cookie!!!!!

i did rather spend my money on these instead of a wrap.
1 wrap / kebab = 2 of those.
i think da latter is more worth it!!! -.-


im starting work this sunday.=(((((
cant believe that i am dreading it before i actually started with my 1st official shift.
6 hours of work.
serving customers,doing dishes,clear the table.
INTERESTING!!!!!!
why those retail outlet never call me for an interview or something???
at least u get to dress nicely in retail and not some fugly uniform!!!!


need to continue with my accounting practice set,RELUCTANTLY!!!



nerding makes me a sad gal.


random note:
i <3 this emo pic of myself!!!!


till then,
~toodleS~

NESCAFE + DRINKING CHOCOLATE = MY DAILY DRUGS.


the language section in my brain would stop functioning once i click on the create new post page these days.
its not like i have nothing to blog about.
ideas,issues are flying around my brain cells before i click on this page,but it somehow got stuck to some corner in my brain when i am about to release them.

finals is in a month.EXACTLY one month!!!!
yes,my first paper is QMA and it starts on the 15th of june.=.=
i need to buck up with all my studies if i want to maintain my HD average. * DDDUHHH!!!*
however,uni is being such a bitch lately with all the assignments deadline approaching.
freaking QMA assignment which is due next week.*are we like some kinda genius or what?Question was only up like last week?wtf?*
accounting practice set due in week 13 which is a week after next.*my payment is still pending thou i had paid through Bpay since last friday.*
yea,"only" two assignments,what's so big deal about it?
well,these 2 are enuf to kill me,and stress me out.
not to mention,my mountain-high tutorial work.
THANK GOD that finance quiz is FINALLY over,and the finals is in MCQ.*it sounds easy but i ALWAYS lose marks on MCQ.as insane as it may sound,i DO prefer extended response questions.


weather is getting colder too.*D'OH*
and therefore,majority of my clothes are gonna be hibernating in my cupboard from now on.
im SO LACK of autumn/winter clothings.i think i repeat my wardrobe every week.=.=
f.y.i.,i am a #1 skirts fan.
i LOVE wearing skirts,which doesnt seem that appropriate in the cold weather unless i wear it with boots.=)
obviously,i cant wear boots everyday,and i am not going to give up wearing skirts!!!
leggings is the best option.

my FIRST time wearing leggings.i always have the thought that leggings are for 'clamps',but leggings are common here.
*the captions are meant to cover my fats,clearly it doesnt help much.leggings make ur legs look slimmer but.*

as i have mentioned,due to the never-ending work,which eventually increase my stress level,
causes TWO FRIGGING PIMPLES TO GROW ON MY FACE!!!!
im not trying to make a big fuss about it neither am i trying to show off,
but i NEVER had more than 1 pimpleS on my face at the same time.
of course i have it on and off,but its ALWAYS ONE PIMPLE(s) ON MY FACE.
this shows how stressful am I.wtf?


its not that noticeable here,but i DO have 2 pimples.

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my annoying(dunworry,i still love u.=)) sista turned 15 today!!!


HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!





hope u have a great birthday without my presense.
*thou its DEFINITELY NOT AS GREAT AS THE PREVIOUS ONES CUZ I AM NOT THERE.HOHOHOHOHO*
and,also get well soon!!!!!
*yes,she is up with a sorethroat on her birthday!!!*




despite the fact that u are probably the most annoying sista ever (or maybe u come 2nd after zoe),
u know i love u with all my heart rite???
and since its ur birthday,i shall *ahem* be a nice sista,create some good karma and say

I MISS U DEARLY,SISTA!!!!

i miss those silly arguments we have at least like ten times a day.
i miss camwhoring with you.*thou u are always trying to copy me!!!bluek!!!*
i miss the constant,silly fights over useless stuffs.
i miss those times where we actually have serious,heart-to-heart-talk.
i miss the moments where we bitch about every single thing we could bitch about.
i miss SHOPPING with u.* i know u miss that even more,since u need to follow them when u guys are our on weekends.bahahahah!!!!*
and,i miss EXERCISING with you,while comparing who is fatter. *dont be deceived by her small frame,she is not THAT thin as she seems like it.hehehe*



do we really look THAT alike?
ALOT *and i mean REALLY ALOT* of ppl said that we look exactly the same.
see,how many times have i told u NOT to copy me too much.(",)
quoted from andy
"she is full small adeline.she looks like when u were 7.'
quoted from negaraku,julian,kirks(during camp)
" she is like small adeline la'
quoted from su and eeling(really long time ago)
"eh,ur sister and u look damn alike'

ooooooooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii,
i know u miss me heaps,
but no need to copy me till the extend ok?
hairstyle also wanna follow my stylo one.*shakes head*
and now,copy the way i talk too *refer to cbox*
i know u are trying to be like me,but just take it easy,u can never be as good as me!!!bahahaha.


*dw.im not THAT big headed and full up myself.its just the way how we sistas communicate with each other.a way of bondingggg.LOL.*



once again,

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY!!!!!
may all ur dreams come true.
all the best in ur upcoming exams!!!
and good luck in ur futrue undertakings.

mwamwa!!!!


love,
adeline

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talked so much about my sis,
now i felt bad for not posting a better post for my mum during mommies day.
it was a VERY VERY VERY brief post.

mum,

thanks for everything u have done/sacrifice for me.
thanks for saving the best for me.
thou i don't show it,nor say it out loud,I LOVE U VERY MUCH deep down my heart.
thanks for bringing me to this world.
thanks for showering me with love and care for the past 18 years.
thanks for all the pain and sufferings u have to put up with to raise a stubborn daughter like me.

i wanna thank u again for all the things u have done for me!!!!
i really appreciate it.<33

HAPPY MOMMIES DAY!!! once again and belated.


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btw,im SOOOOO SOOOOOO SOOOOOOO SICK of ham sandwiches!!!!
i have been eating sandwich with cheese,ham and cucumber since my semester resumed.
which is approximately 3 months.
how can i not be sick of it???
uni food is tooo expensive,i will be dead broke if i were to eat there everyday.
any suggestion what other food can i pack to uni?
tried tuna sandwiches,but the tuna stained my bag and made my bread soggy!!


i have SOOO MUCH more to blog about actually.
but since the time is chasing up with me,so i shall keep it for next time.
wish me luck ppl,micro presentation tmr.=(((
pictures from sunday will be up once im free.



till then,
~to0dleS~

my weekend just passed with a blink of an eye,without me realising it,and its already sunday night.
another week has passed,and another same,old,daily routine to"look forward" to.
im dreading the arrival of this week,more than usual.

• finance quiz on monday
• micro presentation on wednesday
• HEAPS of tutorial work
• QMA assignment
• micro report
• START WORKING ON SUNDAY. * i SERIOUSLY dread it before i begin my first shift.*
• preparation for finals which is in a month time!!!!

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state library is the BEST and MOST CONDUCIVE place to study.
the place is full quiet,perfect place to concentrate.
the best thing is,there is nothing much i could do when i get re
i actually studied for like 5 hours yesterday with sally,linda,michael and jin.
GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT!!!!!!

the library


mua stuffs


this is what u do when u are restless and u cant do nuts.


linda.michael.


my colourful notes.=))


went paddy's to get some fruits after a whole day of studying.
followed the peeps to this jap restaurant in capitol square.
had some salmon only,cuz i was supposed 2 go back for dinner.


salmon is becoming my favourite now.


green tea icecream!!!!! delicioussss!!!!!

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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!


mummy and i before i left down under.



sorry for the badddddd language/grammar used in this post.
i lost my enthusiasm to blog,therfore its just a reallllyyyy brief one.
i dint go for ice skating,went to the beach instead.
pictures later.

~ciaoZ~

RANDOM

instead of partying in the city,here i am,rotting in front of my laptop.
somehow,i aint that enthusiastic as i was before.
and no,its not cuz of my parents' disapproval.
couldnt be bothered to even ask my parents.
it was a battle between my wild side and my nerdy side.
its not exactly that my nerdy side of me has won,my close frens aren't going is more of the main reason why i decided to rot at home instead.
what is fun when ur partying without ur besties?
i love u guys with all my heart ok?<3


studied finance today.my brain functioned much better in the morning and without the distraction of my laptop.well done,adeline.
and i just did my 2nd attempt of QMA quiz.fcken hell!!!
2nd attempt was worst than the 1st one. *another reason for andy to tease me about*
i gave away my chance to score perfect score in the 1st attempt due to the STUPIDEST CARELESS MISTAKE!!!!
i wanna get a FREAKING HD AVERAGE,nope,HD FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS in finals.
i wanna be the TOP 10% in the ENTIRE commerce faculty.
that's my goal.
this shall be my motivation to push me to work harder,and stop slacking.



as i said,
all work and no play makes adeline a lifeless freak.
therefore,i will go to MSO ice skating trip in macquarie centre on sunday.
but 1st,i will be heading to the state library to study with the gals.
balance between study and play.



i swear,
I.AM.GONNA.PARTY.HARD.RIGHT.AFTER.MY.FINALS.
i need to,before my 2nd semester kicks in with MORE WORK,MORE STRESS.
enjoy uni life to the fullest!!!


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random shit about

PRICE DISCRIMINATION

something i learn in micro 2 weeks ago.
which means,selling the same product at a different price.
u know what is the BEST-est ( i know there is NO such word,im just trying to emphasize MORE on the best) example?

NSW GOVERNMENT!!!!

who doesnt give friggin' conssession transport tickets to international students!!!!

unlike adelaide,brisbane and perth!!!!


as-freaking-if,WE,international students aren't student.
its not that im such a cheapo or being a miser,
but heck,my fren(who is a local student) is using the SAME GREEN travel pass,
i pay 41 dollars a week,she pays 20 a week.
see the HUGEEEEE MARGIN!!!!!
just cuz i am not holding australia passport,and i wasnt inhaling AUS air for the past 18 years,that doesnt mean that im not a student.
i AM STILL a student,who freaking deserve conssession too.


PRICE DISCRIMINATION!!!!!!!



enuf shit.
need to prepare for my micro presentation next wednesday.
total gayness!!!!!!


p/s: i need to improve on my england since kirks said that my england very powderful * im being sarcastic here* and andy was insultin(not exactly) my england.


till then,
~toodleS~

a post will be up real soon.
procrastinating bug has infected my blogging spirit too.
<3

FINALLY BACK!!!!

after procrastinating for 4 days,im finally bloggin again.
its kinda unbelivable that adeline the blog addict actually feel reluctant to blog.
was blog stalkin yesterday during my 5 hours break.
came across this blog,saying that once u procrastinate in blogging,its hard to get urself to blog again.wtf?but i find it true.-____-

one of da reasons why im so lazy to blog is cuz NOTHING interesting happened *among the thousands of other donkey gold hidden reasons i'm SO blooming lazy to blog...is because, there's about as much happening in my life as the life of a nomad monk. yes, practically nothing.*
besides the usual,same,old,boring rants about how overloaded uni work is.
like seriously,only 12 friggin' contact hour for commerce student,
yet,the workload is INCREDULOUS!!!!!!!!!!

and,

• finals is in a month time.
  
• 4 subjects are all crammed in a week. * look at a brighter side,i have ONE MONTH WINTER BREAK.which i NEED,DESPERATELY!!!*
• QMA assignment part B is due in like 2 weeks. *QMA assignments are gay!!!*
  
• micro presentation next week,with the hardest question of all. * the fact that i stammer in public makes things worst.*
  
• submit micro report a week after. * 500 words!!!!!!*
  
• finance quiz,again
  
• HEAPS of tutorial work. * as usual,never ending*
• accounting practice set which carries 10% in our final marks. *AND our lecturer recommended us to spend AT LEAST 20 friggin hours on it!!!! also,we need to pay FREAKING 20 DOLLARS for it!!!!*

W.O.N.D.E.R.F.U.L.


i really really really NEED a LONGGGGGG break!!!!
to relax and worry NOTHING about uni work.
ALL of us need it.
I.CANT.WAIT.FOR.MY.HOLIDAYSSSSSSSS.


anyways,



UNSW walkway,100507.

on my way to the bus stop



when i was on the way home in the evening.

F.Y.I.,

i do not take my OWN pictures solely,i DO enjoy taking pictures of my surrounding.
especially breath taking sceneries.
using my hp to snap shots of the picturesque autumn sceneries surrounding me has became a reflex reaction lately.
and i noticed that my 1.3MP camera phone has done a pretty good job.
or,maybe its just that i am a good photographer.=.=


i got myself a job.
in michel,a franchise-half-fastfood-like-cafe.
went for 2 hours trials today,and i already hated the job.
no wonder my friends told me NOT to work in a cafe.

reason 1: i don't get to make coffee. *DUH!its kinda obvious!!!!but i wanna learn*
reason 2: i NEED to freaking do dishes.*those who know me well enuf know my hatred towards doing dishes*
reason 3: the have ugly,dirty uniform,and cap AND apron.*laugh all u wan by imagining how i look like in those clothes*
reason 4: there is DEFINITELY more work to do in a cafe than retail store.

i know i sounded like a spoil brat,but heck,its true!!!!
i accepted the job thou.till i get myself a new job.
all my friends were saying how picky i am,and what a daddy's gal i am.
i wont deny cuz its true.
nothing is impossible.
im gonna get a job which pays well and doesnt require those shits that i dont like.


upon getting the job,i decided to reward myself with icecream!!!!!

THE.

ICE.

CREAM.

WAS.

DAMN.

GOOD.

choc+ferrero rocher+hazelnut = heaven!!!!




went for movie on tuesday night with sally,linda,jason and andy.
that's when u get cheapER movie but i still think its so expensive cuz i used to get SUPER CHEAP movie tickets back home.
spidey 3 was a tad overrated.
tobey magguaier(however u spell it) looks freaking gay.
kirsten dunst looks ugly * i never think she is pretty before btw*
i still think the 1st spidey was the BEST.
the movie ended kinda late,and i missed the bus.
*i din freaking know that the bus only comes every hour at night*
therefore,i waited for 1 friggin' hour for the next bus.
and,i sorta got lectured by my parents,who are few thousandSSS kilometres away.
for coming home late and for not having self control.


seriously,i think my parents are WAYYYY toooo strict.
i am turning 19 this year,yet i still have SOOO many restrictions.
apparently,the rate i am going is worrying my parents.
"rate" : going out at night/going out too much.
as far as i am concerned,i have the most pathetic social life among my frens since forever.
i have always been the one who turns down people's offer to go out,
be it mamak,lunch,dinner,outing,movies,or clubbing.
and when i told them that its not like i am flunking my test,in fact i got 2 HDs and 1 D (which i reckon its not bad),what is there to worry about.
"its not about studies.u need to have self control"
i.can.faint.on.the.spot.


I.NEED.A.FREAKING.BALANCE.BETWEEN.MY.STUDIES.AND.ENTERTAINMENT.
so what if i pass my uni with high distinction,but all i did in my 3 years uni life is STUDYING.nothing but studying.
my parents think exercising IS a form of entertainment.
maybe for them,but NOT me.
i wanna pass all my exams with flying colours YET enjoy my uni life to the fullest.
i wanna do something what a NORMAL uni student would do.
not those kinda entertainments which my parents think i shud do.
when i was telling my aunt,she totally understands.

generation gap between parents and children can be such a pain in the ass at times.
it gets frustrated when ur parents dont understand what a NORMAL uni life is.
my point of view IS,
i deserved to party occasionally,as long as i ace my exams(which i think i did), DONT DO DRUGS,SMOKE/BREAK THE LAW.
don't u agree with me?

i know my parents are being strict because they care for me and love me.
but,don't they realise that being too strict will actually drift us apart.
sometimes,i just find it so hard to tell them things cuz they dont understand from MY stand.
its NORMAL that u have more social activities(from club activities to parties) to attend in uni,since its the time where u meet heaps of ppl.


im letting all these thoughts out in my blog IS cuz:
i have a birthday party to attend tmrw,but i don't know how to tell my parents.
im sure that they are gonna lecture me again,and might not even let me go.
an ordinary 19 year old teenager would just leave a msg to inform their parents.
whereas for mine,they are just gonna ask heaps of questions and not let me go after that.
i know that its out of their concern and love and care,
but i am old enuf to make my decision,to know what is right and what is wrong.


sometimes,i wished that they could understand me more,as a teenager.
and what a NORMAL teenager would do.
also,they should have more faith in me,
that i am able to strike a balance between studies and fun.

does their self control mean that i shouldnt party?
does their self control mean that i shouldnt go out at night?
does their self control mean that i cant go out everyweek?


as much as i love them,i wished that they should not be over protective,and be less conservative.


p/s: how now brown cow?i really really really wanna attend that birthday party!!!!
gotta "brainstorm" *im not exaggerating* how to tell them????
don't get me wrong but.i still love them with all my heart,its just that i need my freedom at times too.


im freezing here!!!!!
gotta continue with my finance now.


till then,
~toodleS~

ALL HAIL UNITED!!!!!!

for once,i LUV arsenal so much!!!!!!!!!
a draw with chelsea,sealed manutd's premier league title.
also,the next game for united is @ stamford bridge.
HAH!!!! it would be HELLLL NICE if the trophy is awarded there.
right in ur face,chelsea's fans!!!!!

2006 /07 PREMIERSHIP CHAMPION : MANCHESTER UNITED!!!!


was looking through my 'diary' yesterday and i just found out that:

• finals is in another 6 more weeks. * holy moly,time fliesssssss*
• i have a finance quiz next week(again) along with my micro presentation.
• and my micro discussion question is fcken hard!!!!! *im dead*
• QMA assignment part B is coming soon *like real soon*

which means,i need to switch to full nerding mode,as in really FULL.
i want a freaking HD average!!!!!
i wanna ace my uni life at the same time party hard too.


gotta prepare for uni now.
~ ciaoZ~

beautiful weather makes my day.

the weather these few days have been beautiful.
sunny but not scorching hot with a lil' breeze.
we have summer temperature this week thou its mid autumn now.
global warming is taking its toll on us.
another record breaking time for not blogging!!!!
i guess i have better things to do now such as whining over korean dramas on youtube.
i must make use of the good connection which god knows how long will it last.

there are a few random pictures which i was supposed to post few days ago,but i just couldnt be bothered.



i find the tree beautiful!!!!


the above two pictures were taken while i was waiting for bus,which takes FOREVER to come.
and adeline is well known for making use of her camera phone to kill time.
hence,bare with the not so good quality pictures.c'mon is a 1.3MP camera phone.


lurve the effect of this picture.=)

went for finance lecture on thursday since i skipped mine on monday to study for my finance quiz.
my lecturer has changed to some black dude,no more vietnamese dude which can put us to sleep by his monotonous-and-freaking-slow-pace-lecture!!!
he practically mumbles all the time.
this black dude*im not racist towards black* has some kinda weird accent which is hard to comprehend at times,but he is a good lecturer,as he applies the lecture stuffs to the real world.


took this picture cuz i was too bored.o.0

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finally got my permission to work stamped on my passport on friday.
went to the immigration office with linda,and head to uni after that.
we were supposed to do our resume together but we ended up showing each other pictures and msn-ing,as usual.
i was actually so lifeless,that i agreed to follow linda and michael to their calculus lecture.
check out what actuarial studies math looks like.
one HUGE difference in the lecture hall is,the students filled up the front row first.
*actuarial students ARE different from normal commerce students indeed*
i might think twice of changing to actuarial studies,now.
the calculus seems so complicated thou i had learn some of those before,it seems fun in some way but it seems freaking tough too.wtf?
decided to go to library after that 1 hour of calculus class to print my lecture notes and solution.
*my life is seriously un-happening...=.=*

sally,linda and i went to passion flower in darling harbour for ice cream after that.
the ice cream was good!!!!!!!
since when ice cream is not good anyways?teeheee..... sally,as usual,being really generous shouted all of us the ice cream.
thanx alot babe!!!


black sesame with glutinous(or however u spell it).


red bean and green tea icecream.


took this pic of the city from where i was sitting.
really nice view.

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yesterday,went job hunting with linda in the afternoon around 4ish.
it was alright,hopefully i get some response by next week.
remember me mentioning how much i wanted to work and shit like that,
while i was applying for job yesterday,i realised that working isnt that fun as i thought.
besides the satisfaction that i will get when i receive the paycheck,
and greater satisfaction when i am able to spend them on SHOPPING without feeling guilty.



saw this outside QVB,and picture was taken while crossing the road.
that explains the BADDDD quality.
how cool is that???


i applied for cafe,ice cream shop,MAX BRENNAR and retail.
i left my resume in max brennar thou they dunhave vacancies at the city outlet at the moment.
my passion for chocolates is just indescribable,especially max brennar!!!!
i really wanna work in a cafe*since im so in love with coffee now* or maybe ice cream shop.=)
they better pay me at least 16 an hour during normal days.
my frens were telling me that i shudnt be that picky since i dunhv much experience.


we finished job hunting at around 5ish,and we were only supposed to meet up with the others (florence,sally,jason,andy,dav and nathan) for dinner at 7.
which means,we had like almost 1. hours of free time to bum around.
our legs were damn painful*we were wearing boots*,we decided to just chill around sydney central's food court.
we were sooooooo bored,and thus these 'artworks' were produced *Cough*



uber coolness!!!!!me likey!!!!


linda.


us.<3 this shot alot!!!!!


linda showed me how to take super upfront pic of ur face.


so,i decided to try but ended up looking like a retard.=.=


this explains how bored we were yesterday.


and,for those who know me well,i need not explain the 'cause' of this picture.


had dinner at this japenese restaurant in the city.
the food was great,but the place was jam packed!!!!
waited for ages before our food arrived.



my toblerone cocktail.


udon and sushi set.
im beginning to like raw salmon now.
yummmmmm..................


we went to Karaoke after that(apparently that's what asians in aussie like to do)
i had fun besides having the WORST sound system ever.
the mics will just give u a piercing 'shriek' out of nowhere.
let the pictures do the talking:


linda,sally and i.
sally looks cute here.


sally and i.*sephia effect*


me,jason-with-his-new-35dollars-haircut and andy


linda and i


jason and andy singing,while nathan was stoning.


we were

sally,mua,linda after K.
taken by jason,the BADDDD photographer.


phewwwwwwww,
freaking long post i have,after 3 days without blogging.


btw,
sally and linda said that i look better when i tie my hair.
what do u reckon?


beloved and i.


till then,
~toodleS~