my 'after trials break' had been rather miserable.
besides doin hsework i did nthn.
wat makes thing worst is im rottin at home on a friday nite after trials.
askin my sis geography questions where i need 2 read d ques AND d choices.
p.a.t.h.e.t.i.c.
saddening.
pity myself n feelin darn sorry 4 myself too.

practiacally did nthn d whole day!!!!!
besides choppin cucumber.yes.im a gud chopper now.
and also washing dishes.i can call myself da chief washer now.
n i folded clothes.
went giant 2 get groceries.
WOW.how interestin.
d only entertainin part is i spotted a super hot guy in giant.white wit wavy brown hair.*melted*
n if u consider piggin which i absolutely dun think so.
wuz eatin dinner half way til my neighbour called n said she is celebrati her son's bday n asked us 2 go over.
edi ate sum meehoon at home went thr ate again+ cake.
d cake is lovely but is DAMN sweet


have u ever seen a football cake?

wonder how much calories i took?
dare not think.my hardwork on controllin junks in da past few days went down da drain!!!!
dammit.n i dun puke now.cuz i think all da pukin has LOWER MY BLOODY METABOLIC RATE!!!!



seriously.i think my body is damn anti-carbs whereas im addicted 2 carbs.
which suck cock!cuz i hate growin fat n food is my life.
life's juz so unfair.sum gals eat like anythn but stil DAMN SKINNY like my dear fren eunice wong.
eat like a giant but body damn hot!jealous!

tt's my bruised leg which i got from fellin down in mph.damn damn damn big.horrigible!

wat a nice mark d mph parque left on my leg.


sudd i feel tt my life s an 18 yr old wuznt as nice s i expected.
i din get 2 do stuffs i wan like hang out often wit my frens,yamcha-in,clubbin.
actually i did nthn of those i mentioned above.
i felt so incomplete.im like a bird in da jail.
its kinda sad when i think tt my frens can juz go anywhr they wan,whenever they wan by juz informin their parents.
for me?no.2 go out,i muz negotiate dis negotiate tt.
cuz 2 my parents.goin out once in a month is enuf.

wtf rite?its like sooo negative social life.
18 yr old is da best time 2 enjoy life,go socialisin around,makin more new frens.
instead of rottin a home most of da time,being asked

'hv u studied?'
'why u havent start studyin at 11?'
'why arent u studyin'

seriously speakin,those phrases can pissed me of straight away.
i dun need ppl 2 tell me when 2 study,
im OLD enuf 2 plan my time,
and its not like im sum dumb ass who barely pass or possibility of passin is alwiz nil.
my results r ok.satifyin i would say,
yet i stil get nagged often.
and whenever i ask 4 outin,d answer i alwiz get

'ur finals over edi ar?'
'y waste time and money watchin movie.HBO oso got movies wat.'
'y keep goin out?'

these answers r seriously utter shit.make no sense.
after my SAM finals i hv my uni finals,after uni finals i hv MBA finals.
its never endin.m i supposed 2 b a total nerd til i start workin?
its so inpossible!!!!!
its not like im stil young n immature.
i KNOW how 2 manage my time 4 christ sake!!!!!!!
im 18 for christ sake!!!! (or turnin 18.)

im so friggin emo now partly is cost is my 'best' time of da month n i couldnt even get a 'permit'2 watch movie wit kayi.damn frustratin.

'can i watch movie wit kayi tmr?'
'u juz watched movie on thurs'

wtf??????


so i watched movie on thurs i cant watch today.
which means i shitted today i cant shit tmr.

IM 18 FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!

da more i talked bout it ,da more im pissed.
its alwiz im da one who needs 2 confirm.
my frens juz need 2 inform their parents whereas im muz negotiate,get lectured n laalalalal.
i seriously hope tt i can go australia next year.
at least da page of my life when im 19 wudnt b s dull,boring,lifeless s now.
sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.

stupid cramp is attackin me!!!!!dammit.whoever who say u wun get cramp if u exercise.nonsense.cuz i go 2 gym regularly n i stil get cramp every month!!!!!!!!!!!!n it HURTS!!!
so guys,dun b a pussy when u hv stomach ache.its peanuts compared 2 wat v gals r goin tru.

*bas,my special post dedicated 2 u ll b comin up SOON.be patient!*




~ciaoZ~

trials is over.

FINALLY.
FINALLY.
FINALLY.
finally my toturing 5 days trials is over.but mind u.its T.R.I.A.L.S.
approximately ONE MORE MONTH 2 my finals.
im kinda lookin forward 2 it actually.
after finals 3 months WITHOUT books!!!i mean text books!!!

my trials wuz ok d 1st 3 papers which are physics,esl(duh!),bio.
d next 2 papers which r chem n math r DISASTROUS!!!
esp chem!!!r they tryin 2 like make us sum super genius chemist or wt.
damn damn bloody bloody tough.
math wuz ok.but due 2 my lazyness n my anti-kees.
i din do much practices dis time.kinda serve me rite actually.
n i realise i cant get along wit matrix.
simple simple question oso dunno.shoot me plz sum1.
it wuz b like hell when results r back.juz pray hard i get an a.
4 chem,it wud b GUD if i get a B!!!!(imagine how tough d paper is.or mayb im juz stupid.)
wtv it is.screw it.im so gonna enjoy my 3 days break b4 switchin bac 2 serious nerdin mode.
pathetic-nya.3days only.

went pyramid AGAIN after d last paper.its kinda borin thr.but tt's d nearest 2 taylors.no choice.
went lunch at kenny rogers.had d oh-so-sinful baskin robbins.swiss mix n choc.heaven!!!distressin n drownin all my sorrows.shared it wit yee yeng but it made me darn darn ful!!!!


swiss mux n choc!!! feelin hungry now?

managed 2 watch devils wear prada.but v bought miami vice ticket 2 kill time n decided 2 hope cinema.
miami vice SUCK!!!!so disappointing.damn borin.its like basically showin colin farell n gong li hvin so muc 'fun'.he's not so hot anymore n she's not so pretty anymore makin it worst.but devils wear prada wuz way better den miami vice.i luv all d pointy pointy high high heels.absolutely GORGEOUS!!!!!i m so gonna get 1 during da next sales. i saw d super duper huge poster of john tucker muz die.omg!!!tt jesse guy(couldnt rmb his ful name) aka john d hot garderner in desperate hsewife is drop-dead gorgeosly effingggg HOT!!!!!!!!a MUZ WATCH show!!!!!


he's juz SOOOOOOOOOO H.O.T.!

MAXIS HAVE BEEN SUCH A B.I.T.C.H. LATELY.
i used 2 critisized how sucky digi wuz but now hotlink couldnt seem 2 b better.
imagine sendin d msg 30 friggin times yet still error.
wtf???its damn damn frustratin esp when ur tryin 2 msg while nerdin chem.
blardy hell.
30 times!!!!
u earned billion of dollars fr us n u provide us such useless,shity service?
damn u!!

not 2 forget MAIDLESS IS SUFFERIN.
i can die washin dishes ALONE.how m i goin 2 survive in aus in future?
laugh all u wan ee ling 4 usin gloves 2 wash plates.cant blame me.
it makes my hand rougher n STINKS!!!!
ok.dis sounds bimbotic.
but heck.i hv been relyin on maid 4 da past 14 yrs.of course i cant get use 2 it in like wat?a week?
at least.at least.at least.
im a gud fruit-cutter.
yes.im responsible 4 cuttin da fruits 2.cut fruits n washin dishes.
thank god i NEED NOT mop floor or wash clothes.


i cut them.*proud*

i think tt's all 4 now.couldnt rmb any wat else 2 post.its 1220 am.slept at 12 yest n woke up @ 445 dis mornin(or i shud say yesterdaty mornin).brain block.


a random pic of me stranded outside my hse cuz my mum wuz out n i forgotten 2 bring my key.
nerdy specs + leather jacket tells it all.juz came back fr exam.

~ciaoZ~

i hv been quite busy lately since my post bout my pretty fcuked up life.so i din hv time 2 actually update my part2.but since i hv cooled down alot,im not goin 2 blog bout it.*peace*

after all da stress,da day i hv dreaded 4 has finally arrived.phyysics trials wuz yesterday.da paper started at 7 o'clock.hell yea 7 o'clock in d mornin!!!which means im supposed 2 wake up at 5 in d mornin.reach col b4 640. da weird timin is because we r supposed 2 suit d australian timing which is 2 hrs ahead of us.damn sad case.i practised 2 wake up at 5 for da last 2 days which had been like hell!!!!imagine reducin ur afternoon nap by 1 hr.forcin ur heavy ass out of da bed after half an hr of sleep only.den u muz force urself 2 focus.den gym.den nerd at nite again.by da time the clock struck 9.yes 9.i ll b so mabuk.like a zoombie.YET i stil need 2 continue nerdin til like 1030.dis seriously sucks!!den when i woke up at 5,nerd again.wth man.totally lifeless.by da time im at col,im like half dead.damn freakin tired.dis is da daily routine i had gone tru 4 2 days.n im supposed 2 prac tt again a week b4 my finals which is in almost a month n a half time.


my 'tidy' table.


handphone is alwiz da main distraction.


tea has been my BEST fren durin d exam period.i reli need caffein 2 keep me awake.since im not reli a fan of coffee(except rhumba!!!) i had been relyin on tea 2 keep me awake.



but tea sucks.it caused havoc 2 ur sleepin cycle.causin deprivation of beauty sleep wit more hair droppin,more eyebags,lookin more like a cow!!!


look at d amount of hair drop by BRUSHIN my hair only.

ish...1 n a half more month!!!!n i can hv all da fun i wan!!!3 months of break b4 uni commence!!!!!!!!!!!! heavenly life style.nov15!!! da date 2 look forward !!!!!

physics paper yesterday wuz ok la.at least i managed 2 fill in all da blanks.but i crap lots of shit in my essay question.luckily its over 200 marks.so it wudnt kill if when i lose marks.d mph wuz friggin friggin cold!!!wuz warin a long sleeve + autumn leather jacket YET i can stil freeze.wonder wat's da temperature of mph.
sumthn reli EMBARRASSIN n HUMILLATIN happened right after da paper.when i wuz bout 2 leave my place,i tripped n fell.yea.in front of almost 300ppl in da mph!!!how pathetic can it be? sigh.bad paper + pokkai-ing in front of SO MaNY ppl.ish.at tt juncture,i wuz like fcuk!my leg n albow hurt like anythn cuz i landed on my elbow.i thot i wuz goin 2 fracture my albow n i cant sit 4 my trials next week.

P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C.

badluckness.............

thank god is weekend whic means i can actually hv sum space 2 breath since trials had robbed my breathin time away( i noe damn exaggeratin)but its undeniable tt trials has stressed me 2 da maxxxxxx,killin millions of my braincells everyday,causin my intelligence 2 drop drastically.n on da verge of balding....im so gonna hv movie marathon next thurs RITE AFTER my final paper!!!so need movie!!!havent been watchin any movs since dragon tiger gate.devils wear prada.here i come!!!im so gonna go 4 d2yC meetin next sun2.had missed once,missin another 1 again dis week.how could i possibly miss da next week's meetin??its kinda funny 4 me 2 actually 2 b so in2 d2y activities cuz i wuz forced 2 go 2 da camp in f3.cant bliv i m so in luv wit it after goin!!!!

not 2 forget,

IM MAIDLESS NOW!!!!

my maid is soooo problematic til my parents decided 2 send her home.dammit no maid 4 at least 2 months!!!or mayb til next year...

how is da princess ere who barely did any hsework gonna survive 3 months WITHOUT maid.

i noe it sounds bimbotic but heck i need 2 wash dishes,iron my clothes,cut fruits, etc.dun get me wrong. i DO noe how 2 do those stuffs.its juz tt i hate doin it.sigh.how m i goin 2 survive when im in aus.all by myself.suck!!!!guess dis is da time 2 learn 2 b independent.but stiiilllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

maidLESS is sufferin!!!!!!!!!!!

one word.miserable.

juz cuz i had my FIRST paper yesterday,it's as thou my exams ARE over.din study MUCH yesterday n today which is damn suck,considerin tt i havent finish my syllabus.all i did wuz goin tru past yrs.i din even get 2 prepare my formulae sheet 4 d whole mornin n afternoon today. how m i supposed 2 pass my trials wit FLYIN COLOURS?now juz hope tt i get ALL a's 4 my subs.den im contented.

i think im back 2 d poser-cam-whore-adeline edi after my poser-bug has been MIA 4 god noes how long.


yen n i.stupidity.


us again.in AC.





















me.in serena's glasses.look like a secretary.dont i?

tt's all for now.goin 4 mooncake festival party in aman suria itself.more pics 2 be uploaded after my trials end which is next thurs.

~ciaoZ~

da memoirs of my pretty fcuked up life : part 1.

WARNIN: dis is a friggin emo post wit lotsa vulgar words!!!!!dun bother readin if u r not interested!!!!!! dis post is meant 2 release al my wrath!!!!!!



havent been bloggin 4 a few days n im feelin kinda uncomfortable.guess im juz addicted 2 bloggin.
life hv ben such a bitch lately.
study.nerdin.study. pressure from my parents
lifeless piece of shit!!!
my life is pretty fcuked up now.
on thurs,after da briefin 4 exams it added TONNES of burden,tension,pressure 2 my shoulder.
mrs ho kept remindin us tt its a 3 hrs paper.
dammit.i noe 3 hrs is juz nice 4 me 2 complete d whole paper.tt's IF i noe all my stuffs.
cuz i cant b spendin more den 1 min for 1m.
4 chem,i only hv 57secs 2 to obtain 1 m.
which means further contemplation more den 57 secs is most probably lead 2 incomplete paper.
which means i muz b darn sure bout my facts which i noe im FAR fr well-prepared.
which stressed me out like anythn.remindin myself a gazillion times tt i MUZ focus.
but sumhow i ALWIZ fail 2 do so!!!!not til towards late nite whr my consciences struck me.
den i ll force myself 2 kill all d attached sleepy bug 2 make myself study til1.

im so blardy stressed out.
yet my parents dun understand me.juz cuz i DUn show it infront of them.
my peak-stressed time is either in col or late at nite.
which obviously they cant c.
n my mum thinks im slackin like anythn juz cuz i slept 4 2 hrs in d afternoon after col n i go on9 after gym.
DUH i ll retaliate when she lectures s im NOT!!!
i juz need sumthn 2 keep me off my stupid fcukin lifeless PILLES of notes.
izit 2 muc 4 goin on9 for 1 hr?
i DUN watch tv series anymore since they said i SHUD resist temptation 4 another 2 months.
im GROUNDED til my finals is over.
izit 2 muc 2 go on9?u tell me.
den she wud say i sleep 2 muc.
goddammit!!!!i sleep at 1 n wake up at 6.
bloody 5 hrs of sleep n i need 2 nerd like a mad nerd.
DUH i need sum replenishment in d afternoon rite?
izit soooooo hard 4 her or rather them 2 understand such SIMPLE thing?
she can actually ask dun i feel guilty.
does she ever noe guilt is killin me everynite when i realise i din do muc 4 da day n i ll start forcin myself 2 nerd thou im dead tired?no she doesnt.
juz cuz i din show doesnt mean tt i DUN feel guilty or stressful!!!!

i cant bliv my dad actually doubt my ability of fulfillin monash entry requirement.
i noe im not sum super smart ass but i think im abit above average since i hv been scorin 80 above 4 my exams truout dis yr.since im able 2 obtain 80+ 4 my raw score.im sure ter ll b higher.unless i hv serious brain damage b4 my finals.
i din noe tt i AM suc a not-so-0gud daughter 2 them.
i nv knew tt they doubt my capability in scorin tt score.
i mite not me da cream of da cake.scorin a TER of 99.99%.heck.tt's superhumans score not 4 NORMAL human like me.
but i wud try my very best 2 score atleast 95 n above.
i noe study is da key 2 it but tt doesnt mean i muz hv negative social life,zero entertainment.
only study.eat.sleep.ecercise.bathe.
it cant b only these PATHETIC 5 words exist in my dictionary rite.

due 2 da stress im facin,da pressure fr them,n my kiasuness 2 do well.in short my pathetic,fcuked up life.i think i suffered fr mentally breakdown.
imagine me cryin twice last nitw n dis mornin at 7 sumthn in da mornin when i slept at 3 last nite due to 2 cups of tea which kept me awake!!!
cried 3 times in less den 12 hrs.im pretty sure im not TT stable n normal.
thank gudness its weekend or else even 1inch thick make-up cant cover all my swallon eyes.
im hvin weird disorders now.both bullemia n insomnia.
i stuff my dinner down my throat without muc chewin.thrfore its so uncomfy.
so...i went 2 puke AGAIN.self induced.cant help it.n result in hunger at 1 in da mornin
i seriously think my intestines r corroded my al da HCl in my gastric juice.
den i slept at 3 thou i wuznt reli feel like sleepin n i woke up around 710!!!!
wuz freakin tired but i juz couldnt continue my sleep.
thank gudness i hv my ipod 2 accompany me.but my ipod has been such a bitch lately.da batt couldnt last more den 7 hrs.half of their so called 14 hrs.

i shall continue my disfactory l8r when my parents r not in.they r cumin bac anytime soon.incase im accused of being ADDICTED 2 da com.

*ee ling.if ur readin dis sorry bout all d vulgar words.i noe u dun like it.but juz cant help it*

~ciaoZ~

dammit.
i type a damn long post yest and my stuuuupid com juz get hanged and d whole post juz d.i.s.a.p.p.e.a.r.e.d liddat.
wat an ass d com can b sumtimes.i wuz 2 lazy 2 retype d whole post again so i decided not 2 blog yesterday.

went dinner wit kayi n family 2 celebrate our sis bday.went 2 dis seafood restaurant at mayang mas.d butter crab wuz ok but it stil lose out compared 2 casis(aman suria)n king crab.let it b da price or da food.king crab def hv better crabs,buns n d price r more reasonable n not 2 mention d atmosphere.think tt's d last time im goin 2 eat in tt restaurant. being a not-so-cam-whore now,i managed 2 snap a pic wit my darling kayi.


kayi and i. =P

i dunno wat's wrong wit me.adeline is juz so not adeline!!!!let me list down all da not-so-adeline syndromeS.
~i hv absolutely NO mood 2 apply make up now thou i look like a cow since i hv been constantly sleepin late l8ly due 2 da upcomin test.i so need make-up 2 make me look better but i juz dun feel like.which means i ll b lookin like a cow til my trials over n i get 2 replenish my deprieved sleep 4 da past few weeks.

~i dun feel like drinkin.i m not a alcoholic.i do enjoy drinkin occasionally.when da neighbourhood hv potluch or watsoever when they hv wine n stuffs.but on saturday,on my sis bday.i only drank a glass of irish cream.yes.my fav irish cream.i dun even feel like drinkin after tt miserable glass.

~my cam-whore bug hv been hibernatin seens like 4eva.till now i stil din pose muc!!!which is so da not adeline who wuz once named d ultimate poser.

seriously,i wonder wat da heck is wrong wit me?my hormones had gone wrong due 2 over-stress?or im undergoin sum transformation?serious shyt!!!can sumone tell me wat's wrong wit me??????!!!???

yesterday wuz a pretty boring day.wit da usual nerdin (which i din do muc ).sigh.i cant wait 4 my lifeless life 2 end man.but on d other hand.i dowan my finals 2 come so soon since im SO NOT prepared at al 4 trials.let alone finals.wuz craving 4 baskin robbins ice-cream.but nobody can get it 4 me.watched f1 last nite while 'studyin' 4 my stupid moral studies test tmr.useless sub.utter shyts n craps!!!!i hv no idea y on mother earth r v wastin time learnin shitloads of useless crap.its so gonna make me a better person wit those moral values.they even hv principles 4 moral values.u think ur issac newton or albert einstein izit?principles n rules.shyt asssss...couldnt care less bout it.i wudnt waste my precious time studyin useless piece of shyt when i hv loads of better stuff 2 study.

oh btw,
MICHAEL WON D MONZA GP!!!!!!!!!
ALONSO CRASHED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tt's d best news truout d whole season of racin.how often does tt monkey head has such badluck?he wuz badluck in d hungarian gp but he *cursed* michael s well til micheal retired at d last 3 laps!!!its so relivin when he crashed out n micheal got 1st.im pretty sure tt michael can win d championship wit only 2 points diff now.but d sad news wuz michael ois retirin end of dis season.thank gudness raikonnen is his replacement n not any tom,dick or harry!!!!!

kimi + ferrari = best combination ever.

ruud van nistelrooy scored a hattrick 4 real madrid.dis is enuf 2 proove 2 tt stupid SIR alex fergeson how wrong is he 2 sell ruud juz cuz he has problem wit him.undoubtedly,he's a ud manager.but he seriously hv a prob whr he sells players whom he doesnt like.like jaap stam,beckham,roy keanne n now ruud.they were once hvin suc gud player-manager relationship.n it can juz change overnite.n u ll c him sellin those GUD players.anyway.congrats mu 4 such flyin start!!!!!liverpool,chelsea n arsenal had all lost at least a game!!!serve u RIGHT!!!cheers 2 mu n hope they maintain their superb run.

tt's all 4 dis post b4 i start complainin bout my oh-so-borin-stress.

~ciaoZ~

stresssssss!!!!!!!

im gettin more n more stressed out s da days 2 my trials is gettin closer n closer.
which i think its killin more n more bout brain cells.
forci myself 2 study as muc s possible everyday.
til i had a 'hangover' yesterday!!!
my hangover is not due 2 drinkin but due 2 excess nerdin.
slept 4 3 friggin hours after col.3 and a half hours 2 b exact.
yet im stil damn tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cuz i slept like damn late on wed,din reli take napon thurs n nerded til 1+.
if i m stil energetic,i muz b on drugs or wat 2 keep me awake.
due 2 my over-tiredness,i ate a vitaminB at 830 at nite!!!
which means im goin 2 stay awake til d wee hours.
hopefully can nerd finish 2 chaps of bio.doubt it.
ended up finished 1 chap only.not bad.at least im done wit my macromolecules.
expected 2 nerd til 3 or 4.but ended up goin 2 bed at1 sumthn.so muc 4 nerdin hard.
looks like my brain is shuttin down.even vitB doesnt work.
dis mornin.went gym b4 started studyin.cuz i felt extremely fat 2day.dun ask me y.managed 2 nerd 4 like 1 hr only of chem.n ere i m bloggin!!!
shyt wei.i m damn damn addicted 2 bloggin!!!!!
so muc 4 my hard core studyin schedule...

ok.enuf of my studies stress.since bas wuz complainin tt i blogger bout d same thing every post.
i shall blog bout my stress-fullllllllbio practical test.dis wuz da most stressful bio practical ever.i used 2 think bio prac wuz d best.interesting.non-stressful.compared 2 d stressful chem prac whr u need 2 worry every sec whether u ll break d glassware which i did once.whereas physics prac is 4eva borin.i seldom complete d whole ex.but yesterday's bio prac wuz damnnnn stressful til i think white hair is startin 2 grow.v were practically runnin against time.v need 2 count 90 growin beans.record d data n plot d graph in 1 friggin hour. dammit.d beans were disgustin.hv weird shapes.n so damn small. ere r sum pics taken :






























d greenish thing whic looks like infant shit is d place whr greenbeans were placed.disgusting 2 da max.d growin-beansprouts wit weird length.which i need 2 measure.d beans in d beaker were al da measured ones.put in inside 2 syok sendiri.

after bio.wuz esl class.nowadays,i kinda look forward 2 esl class cuz its funny,least stressful,n no need 2 activate my thinkin cells.yea.but yesterday's esl class wuz hell!!!it wuz funny n all but miss ng detained us til like 220 when our class ends at2!!!!i wuz friggin tired n wuz soooo lookin forward 2 go home n hv a nice sleep.but she detained us 4 no f***in reasons!!!!!she gave us essay.sayin tt v DO NOT NEED 2 do if v dun feel like.den l8r she wuz lik y u guys nv do ur work.n she punished giri 4 nthn.or mayb 4 bein abit gay in class.thou d 20 mins of 'detention' wuz filled wit laughter but heck i wud rather b in my cosy bed n sleep!!!


bas,these 2 pics r SPECIALLY uploaded 4 u 2 prove u wrong!!!!


d front


d back.


see????its N.I.C.E. !!!!!
ur theory is WRONG!!!!


these r da 2 body glove shirts i bought on independence day.the colours r fab.u.lous.

i think tt's all 4 dis post.gtg hv my lunch n continue nerdin!!!i dowan2 cry over spilt milk like wat i did on my fcukin math paper.i dowan 2 let my beloved parents down 2.i can see tt they put high hopes on me.n they r sacrificin the luxuries which they can enjoy juz 2 send me 2 aus.makin me feel reli bad if i dun put in 100% effort!!!tt's da least i could do.heck.since when im so mature??? *salute*

~ciaoZ~

i SCREWED my math paper!!!!!

i SCREWED my math paper!!!!
d whole paper is juz so fcuked up!!!!!
beliv it or not.i DID screw up d stupid matrix paper.
i shall claim matrix s my most-hated sub now.
stats is way easier!!!!
at least i can stil score.
no more hope in gettin a straight a's 4 all my math paper.
i nv felt so helpless in a math paper b4.
math wuz sorta like my strongest sub.
now.even math i can screwed it up.imagine wat ll happen 2 my not-so-strong subs????

i act broke down after d paper.yes.i cried after d paper.
wuz complainin 2 eunice.complainin complanin n out of sudden,
i juz broke in2 tears.
how embarrasin can it b.i thot no 1 ll notice since i turned my head 2 d other side.
but.but.but.
vincent told me tt everyone saw!!!!
gosh!!!!how embarassin can it b???
every1 saw me cryin!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wth??????

sigh.reasons y i did badly.

cuz matrix sucks!!!hopeless,useless topic whic i hv not a single idea y on earth r v learnin tt.

cuz i din prepare well?i did exercise.thou i din finish al d quest in masa but i did quite a couple of questions.which i thot wuz enuf.guess i wuz wrong.

cuz i wuz over-confident?(tt's wat mrs keesssssss said)wtf?juz cuz i score occasionally n i so happen not 2 do well in d DI cuz i DUNNO how 2 do,u cant blame me 4 tt n say tt im over-confident rite?i said b4 tt i suck in stats n matrix.blardy biatch.say tt im over-confident.its not my fault tt im not doin well.its cuz u suck in ur teachin.i think d whole G6 agree wit me!!!

cuz i suck in time management.yes.i spent like 10 mins in d 1st ques due 2 my carelessness!!!!d easiest ques in d whole damn paper.n i spent so damn alot of time!!!!n d WORST part is i noe tt my answer is wrong but i hv NO time 2 change.wat can b more frustratin den tt?

anymore reasons?i think tt's all i can think 4 da time being.

i noe i shud b studyin now.but i need 2 release al my anger,my sorrows b4 i study.

trials is in 2 more weeks.n im nowhere near completion.faraway fr it actually.not even reach 50% of my entire syllabus.how fcuked up can i b seriously!!!!!!! i can cope wit 12damn subs last yr.but now i hv only 5 subs n im edi so miserable.im not d last min kind of person.unfortunately,im dis time.n i cant study in a fast pace.

save me plz sum1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

geesh.wen fei stayed back almost everyday 2 nerd in da library.i noe i shud do tt 2.but its either im 2 tired or thr IS distraction in library.yes.distraction in d library.how on earth can i study????

i think im goin2 hv mental breakdown soon!!!

everyday stressin myself liddat.dunno how many brain cells actually get killed everytime i m stressed out!!!

geesh...i cant wait 4 my trials 2 over.im definitely goin 4 movie marathon b4 i re-start my nerdin mode 2 prepare myself 4 d finals.

pulse.
devils wear prada.
my super ex-gf.
john tucker muz die.
miami vice.
world trade centre.

sooooooooooooooo many nice moviesssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i muz make sure i watch at least half of those movies....

i wanna hv a birthday partay 2!!!!!
its my 18th bday!!!!
of course its auspicious rite?lol.
but.my parents seem reli reluctant 2 let me hv 1.sayin tt finals is so near n blablabla.
n asked me 2 hv it after my finals.but tt's a month after my bday.
so potong steam.
im gonna persuade them till they gif in.
showin my lawyer skills.

*my blog seems 2 b lackin of pics.sumhow im not so enthusiastic of camwhorin lately.mayb is due 2 stress over my trials.or mayb d camwhore-posin bug is hybernatin.*

gtg bathe n eat now.hard core nerdin tonite.i mean it.3 bloody chaps of physics waitin 4 me 2 absorb!!!


~ciaoZ~

so dead.so so dead....

im soooooo dead!!!!!

seriously dieded!!!!!!!!

my trials is in freakin less den 3 weeks.n i hv shitloads 2 catchup and im on9 bloggin!!!!!

who on mother's earth in their right mind ll blog when they r supposed 2 study HARD!!!!!

clearly,i hv lost my mind!!!!!

i stayed bac in col 2 'study' in d library.sook yen n i went library straight after class.plannin mind u PLANNIN 2 b a nerd,gud student n start nerdin.guess wat v did?v spotted dis quite hot guy wit absolutely macho body!!!!n in case u guys dunno.yes i simply admire macho guys!!!!reli built up guys.they give me d secure feelin. =P
how on earth r v suppose 2 nerd wit ful concentration when thr's a hunk within ur vicinity????? yea.4 half an hour,yen n i were checkin him out,gigglin,checkin him out,gigglin again.BUT not doin our math work.so muc 4 nerdin in library.

library mite not b da best place 2 nerd when thr's a hunk within ur visible range!!!!!!

johan came n join us after tt.he wuz bored.ppl tend 2 do weird stuffs when they r bored 2 death.tt's wat johan did.mumblin sum ***** prayers.juz 2 annoy us.doin his usual-oh-im-a-bimbo slang n more other stuffs cuz he's juz plain bored!!!!yea.so i listened 2 my ipod whhile writin my math formulae sheet but it din seem 2 work.i cant hear but i could stil c him.fine.entertained him 4 while.c wat a gud fren m i.so by d time i actually settled down.it wuz almost 3.studied sum bio.d ever-'interestin'-ecosystem!!!which i juz studied yesterday.n i barely rmb anythn when i wuz tryin 2 do questions.all my hard work went down da drain.seriously.my brain is NOT gud in memorisin stuffs.tt's y u cant c me scorin in bio n chem.cuz i HATE memorisin.mayb scorin well in physics n maths occasionally.not alwiz.salute those ppl wit photographic memory.is dis wat u call them?couldnt rmb.how nice if i could juz rmb by juz readin once.like my dear fren-su ee.but she NV admits tt she's darn smarttt!!!!

so i did pass yr quetions tryin 2 refresh my memories.*cursin at d same time*.duh rite,imagine d nite b4 u were strugglin damn freakin hard 2 squeeze at muc info in2 ur limited-spaced brain.d next day.every single damn thing juz disappeared fr ur non-absorb-proove brain!!!!bloody frustratin.wasted my time n gain nuts!!!!!once again,i started 2 scold myself 4 choosin bio instead of spec math!!im pretty sure spec math is muc better den bio!!!!!!but wat's done is done.

after studyin 4 2 days bout ecosystem.d 'magic' words i can rmb well are
natural selection.
gene flow.
abiotic n biotic factor.
autotrophs.heterotrophs.
biodiversity.
succession.

yea.i only noe them in words!!!!which means essay question cum out.

confirm die!!!!

my parents r plannin a trip 2 china end of dis year.yay!!!!winter clothin.i luv winter clothins but it makes me look damn fat wit multi-layers of clothes!!!!but.but.but.but.my dad dropped me wit a bomb!!!

'u all go china,if wan2 shop,muz save ur own money.if not,u all juz c ppl shop enuf edi edi'
*with a wide grin on his face*

wth?
im like dead broke now.n now im savin 4 my adidas sneakers,rebondin,perfume,belly piercin.n shoppin in china is damn GUD!!n i def cant miss it.but now i need 2 save my own money 2 shop thr????ishhhhh!!!!


i so need a job DESPERATELY after my finals!!!!!!!!

any recommendation?nice job wit high pay.*slowly dream on*
sigh.i need 2 sacrifice 2 satisfy my shoppin needssss!!!!
bein a shopaholic sucks.
4 eve broke.


tt's all 4 now.need 2 continue my ecosystem.

~ciaoZ~

im half a zoombie edi.
i studied CHEM 2day.
silicates.
tedious.boring.lifeless.pointless.tt r my thots when i wuz nerdin.
at least,i DID finish nerdin wat i had planned 2.
for once.

my post 2day is gonna be...erm.wat i call....sesat.
woke up at 9 n i hv NO nap thanx 2 my sis,emily da pig.
disturbin d whole time.
im supposed 2 sleep now.but im addicted 2 bloggin.
so i wanna blog b4 goin in2 dreamland...lalalala.

I SHUD CHANGE MY BLOG 2 ADELINE DA SHOPAHOLIC AND NOT SHOPAHOLIC-TO-BE ANYMORE!!!!!!

cuz............
i went shoppin.AGAIN.
i noe i juz went shoppin like on thurs.
but when i went in2 body glove.i saw

polo tee. two.for.50bucks!!!!!

damn.thr goes my 50bucks.since im a polo-tee lover.got a light green n peach colour polo-tee.
thank gudness i get 200bucks fr my parents lately.
or else.i so gonna need 2 buy ee ling starbucks.
luckily.im a wise spender 2.i spent 180 ++ bucks. + su's pressie.its 200 bucks!!!
sorry ling.thou im a shopaholic.i noe when 2 stop!!!!lol.

my mum wuz pms-in 2day.
dis second she can b damn nice.
d next second she can b damn cranky.
geesh.
it gets in2 my nerves n it annoys me!!!
thanx 2 wat i learnt in campX.
i DID NOT reli fight back.
i tahan-ed.
swallowed all my disatisfactory(is thr suc a word?)
din get in2 argument.
campX did do me gud!!!!

damn.i think my england is gettin more n more powderful.
and dis SUCKS!!!
how can i survive wit my powderful england in aus next time?
damn.mayb i need england class.

i found da best way 2 motivate myself 2 eat less n exercise more with greater determination.
i wanna pierce my belly.
and get a tattoo at my back waist.
in order 2 get both of those,i NEED a gud body without excess fats in my tummy.
hopefully dis will be a BETTER motivation.
hopefully.

but....
i ate soooo much during dinner yesterday.
my aunt fr aus came.so took her 4 dinner in kings crab.
gawdddd...
da food thr is fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!
da crab + their bread.
their butter prawn.
sooooooooo delicious!!!!!
finger lickin gooddddd!!!!!!!
i juz lurveee seafood.
thank god tt my skin is NOT allergy 2 seafood.
im so gonna go thr 4 seafood again.
but.not so soon.1 meal thr can add hundreds of excess calories in2 my body.
which mayb need gymin 4 at least 6 hours.
so with me running after time 2 finish nerdin ALL my syllabus 4 sam 2 prepare myself 4 da upcomin trials,
i CANT afford 2 gym 4 such longgggg hours.

tt's all 4 now.my mum is cumin after me.

~ciaoZ~

i hv a tagboard in da very bottom of da page!!!

hey ppl.i hv a tagboard.
but u muz scroll down til d very bottom.dun ask me why.being a computer-illiterate dis is da best i could do-to actually hv a tagboard.feel free 2 leave comments.n computer geniusessss,teach me how 2 organize my blog properly!!!!


~ciaoZ~

i seriously REGRETTED takin BIO!!!!so many damn things 2 MEMORIZE n i hate,hate,hate memorizin.how on earth m i supposed 2 stuff every single damn thing into my limited-memory-spaced-brain in EXACTLY3 weeks time!!!i need help fr ppl who can score well im bio.now im glad tt i din take alevels.on d other hand,im sorta angry of myself 4 not choosin business.sigh.d only gud thing is pure sc FINISH their finals 1ST!!!!!! NOV 15....im counting d days 2 nov 15.ironic huh?i dowan my trials n finals 2 come so early but i wan it 2 b over soon.

merdeka yest.din reli celebrate it s i had mentioned in d previous post im NOT a patriot.reasons?u guys can ask me personally if ur reli TT interested.i dowan 2 find myself ended up being caught by ISA. i wuz nerdin in d mornin.yea.i FINALLY find da mood 2 nerd SERIOUSLY.but den i hv da stupid cramp.yes.da monthly one.i tried NOT 2 eat ponstant.da pain is unbearable n excruciatin!!!so i decided 2 take ponstant n went 2 sleep.b4 i act get 2 enjoy my sleep,my sis wuz like

'eh,adeline(yea she's not polite at al!)wan 2 go ou or not?'

thou,my pain is stil thr.baskin robbins came 2 my mind.mega sales endin also came 2 my mind.screw d pain.i jumped of my bed.bathe n went 2 ou. managed 2 get baskin robbins icecream n did some shoppin.felt kinda guilty 4 not nerdin hard on a hols.but heck.its independent day.so hv excuse 2 slack.


look at d crazy que!!!bought 2 pint.delicioussssssyyyy!!!wanted 2 take pics.unfortunately,stupid fon no batt.


my new ipod pouch.so d previous billabong 1 shall b my hp pouch now.=P



denim n white skirt fr G & H.(in case u dunno.its opposite hush puppies)i got 2 skirts 4 only 71 bucks!!!!!!!damn cheap.

came bac at almost 6.no time 4 gym!!! can predict how many inches is gonna be added 2 my waist,thighs anyplace u could think of!!i reli wanted 2 head 2 da gym since i din go da day b4 but i wuz supposed 2 go dinner wit my neighbours at 730.i noe thr's stil time.but by da time i settle down n head thr.its gonna b damn late edi.suck!went dinner wit my neighbour in casis(aman suria)da food thr wuz gud!!!

sinful ice cream + scrumptuous dinner - gym = no eyes 2c!!!

had a few pics wit cute lil kids.kids can b reli adorable WHEN they r NOT noisy.i HATE kids which r noisy.they juz annoy u fr head 2 toe.


chuen n i


jo qi n i (they r siblings-chuen n her)


SHANE n i(my cute lil bf)

manged 2 nerd fow awhile b4 goin 2 bed yest.which makes me feel better 4 goin out 4 3/4 of da day.i noe.im a person wit zero determination n im tryin reli hard 2 change.SERIOUSLY.

college wuz boring s usual.chem lec wuz absent,accompanied diana 2 da post office.it wuz freakin far(diana,u owe me1)i wuz sweatin like mad under da scroaching,hot sun!!!nearly melted.gosh i sounded so bimbotic but i DOWAN 2 get dark n hvin more freckles growin on my face!!!!i saw adrian whom i din c 4 ages.wuz kinda shock actually since i din c him 4 ages n din talk 2 him 4 yrs.wuz quite pissed at him last year due 2 sum reasons.but oh well,im not so not forgivin.i mean i cant act b infuriated at a person 4 suc a long time rite.im suc a nice person *ahem*

being d ultimate poser,i dragged ppl 2 camwhore wit me.


johan n i.he's such a poser.worst den me.(but ur stil my camwhore partner.nv fail 2 camwhore wit me) (",)


serena n i.


sam n i.

those pics taken 2day were W'OUT make up.yes.i DID NOT apply make up today.i dunno.after i came back fr campX i sorta reluctant 2 put make up.n my mum is alwiz makin a big fuss bout it.so i decided 2 b a plain n simple gal.natural beauty huh?rite.look damn sesat,eyes look MUCH smaller.nvm.im NOT goin 2 apply make up 2 col (hopefuly) til finals if i dun wake up like a zoombie.=P

tt's all 4 da day.gotta continue nerdin da for-ever-tedious BIO.wat make it worst.its ecosystem.d chap i hated d most!!!!

~ciaoZ~